“Okay… act cool… act cool…” Hey, I’m tryna act all grown-up today But every time you look at me I glitch a bit Playin’ it cool but my heartbeat’s loud Why do I melt the second you’re around You call me “cute” like I’m some kid Yeah, that hits my pride a little But when you don’t look my way It hurts more, and that’s the real riddle “I’m not a kid… you know that, right?” I hit you with that cold “whatever” Hoping you’d turn back to me Truth is, babe, I just Wanted you to say my name softly Boy, you know it, right I’m tryna act tough but I’m see-through Behind all my sass and eye-rolls I’m always one step behind you I’m not a kid, okay I wanna prove it somehow But when you stand too close My brain just freaks out Tell me what am I supposed to do Bought a new lip gloss yesterday Just wanted you to say “damn, that’s cute” Practiced my smile in the mirror Trying to look older, just for you Walking next to you feels like I’m always chasing your stride Every time I try to catch up I feel tiny, and it stings inside “Hey… wait up for me, okay?” Wanna look a bit more grown But not too much, you know Scared you’ll think it’s weird And start letting me go Boy, you know it, right When I look away, it’s not ‘cause I don’t care I’m just scared you’ll see How much I wanna be there I’m not a kid, okay Wish I could say it out loud But when you look at me My words just glitch out Please don’t walk too far ahead I’m still one step behind you “I’m trying, okay… I’m really trying.” Boy, you know it, right I don’t wanna fake it anymore I just want you to like me The way I really am at the core I’m not perfect, not mature But when I say your name That part’s real, no cap I’m not a kid, okay But even if I kinda am When I’m with you I feel brave enough So… don’t let go of my hand I’ll catch up— even if I’m one step behind you “Don’t walk too far… I’m right here.”
