Numb In The Night

NUMB IN THE NIGHT [Intro — whispered] Then again… Slippin’ in and out of a trip again… Mind keeps spinnin’ while the night creeps in… Shhh… Listen… [Verse 1] Slippin’ in and out of a trip, I keep trippin’ again, Biting my lip while I'm fighting the itch in my head, Never been listenin’, spending my last cents senselessly, Bending the pen while I'm sitting in a sentence that’s endlessly Pending — descending, the ending is never defined, Piercing the silence, I’m writing the violence of what’s in my mind, Trying to make sense of a mess I can’t seal or comprehend, Where does it start? Where does it stop? Where do I begin? Where do I end? Depends on the road that I rode when I’m numb in the night, Running from ghosts that I know aren’t really alive, Nothing surprises me, I’m tired of fighting the sight of me, Mirror keeps showing a stranger that’s hiding behind the eyes of me, Lies in the life that I lived, now the memories twist, Every mistake gets a face when I’m staring at it, I’ve been alone on this long road, carrying shame like a stone, Heart turned cold, but there’s still something buried below. [Hook] I’m numb in the night, When the black sky bites and the streetlights flicker, I’m lost in my mind, While the past gets bigger and the walls get thicker, Round and round, hear the bassline pound, Shivers down my spine when the beat breaks down, I’m numb in the night, But I’m still here fighting when the lights go out. [Verse 2] Frozen in time with a mind full of ice, Frightened by society, rolling the dice, Looking for hope like a fool looking gold in a mine, Digging through memories I buried alive in my mind, Trust gets crushed when the rumors start running, Friends turn distant, paranoia keeps coming, Cutting the ties that were tightening around me, Lost in the lines where the lies tried to drown me. Living out loud while I’m lining it out, Maxing the volume to silence the doubt, Minimizing mistakes but my mind won’t mind me, Every reflection got something behind me, Dream written down but it’s covered in stone, Right in front of me but I still can’t know, Too dark to read, every letter is bleeding, Every old memory crawling and creeping. [Pre-Hook] Smoke rolls left, smoke rolls right, Ghosts in the rearview come alive at night, Backwards, backwards, back through time, Perfect timing with an imperfect mind, Beat starts bouncing, bass starts shaking, Whole damn room feels like the floor is breaking, Buzz leaves my brain for a moment or two… Then the silence comes screaming through. [Verse 3 — faster] Standing still at the stop sign, Watching all the lost time cross my mind, Nightlight glowing on the right side, Something in me says, “Turn right,” But the other road calls from the left side, Old temptations with a dead-eyed smile, Money in the middle, greed in the center, Every wrong turn leaves another dent in ya, Years disappear in a split-second vision, Future flashes while the past keeps twisting, Eyes wide open but the whole world's blurry, Mind moving fast but the feet ain't hurry. Then— [Bridge — eerie / melodic] Through the mist… I see her again… Not a ghost… Just a memory wearing her face… There she is, vivid as yesterday, Standing in the doorway while the whole world fades, Holding my picture like a piece of the past, Tears in her eyes from the things that didn’t last, I reach for the moment but it slips through my hands, Trying to understand what I still can’t understand, Then the image dissolves with the morning light, And I wake from the dream with my heart beating wild. [Breakdown — metal scream] WAKE UP! GET UP! DON’T LET THE DARKNESS TAKE YA! HEAD SPIN! CHEST POUND! FEEL THAT BASS SHAKE THE GROUND! NO MORE RUNNING FROM THE THINGS IN MY HEAD! NO MORE LIVING LIKE THE PAST ISN’T DEAD! I’M STILL HERE! I’M STILL BREATHING! STILL GOT A REASON TO KEEP BELIEVING! [Final Hook] I’m numb in the night, When the black sky bites and the streetlights flicker, I’m lost in my mind, But I’m fighting my way through the fear getting thicker, Round and round, hear the bassline pound, Shivers down my spine when the beat breaks down, I’m numb in the night, But I’m still here fighting when the lights go out. [Outro — whispered] Then again… Slippin’ in and out of a trip again… Maybe I ain't gotta run from the night… Maybe I just gotta learn how to walk through it.