Lullaby for the Ocean (Acoustic Ver)

[Verse 1] I am not afraid of death I've died many times I am afraid to live on - without you Knowing what could have been and knowing that I don't know that I will *never* know that knowing is something I don't get to do If you wake up in a moment and find yourself in the deepest part of the ocean So far deep underwater It is not water anymore it's just black it is blackness A void - eternal yet you still can't breathe That's what it's like for me to see your face [Chorus] Things are mostly fine as long as I don't confront them as long as I don't think about them or let them breathe at all so every time I see your face I am reminded That it is impossible for me to be happy ever again [Verse 2] Suffering is all I have In truth that's all anyone ever has But there is something to be said of suffering *together* suffering *through* suffering together I am not afraid of death I'm afraid of what my life is like without you without knowing without ever having without ever even have'n taken my chance to be given a chance to see what we're like To know who you are Are you the person I see in my dreams the person I see on my screens the person I name within my screams The distance between our hearts is like an ocean vast The realization when that moment blind sides me is like being underneath our ocean there is only black there is only cold there is only *alone* [Bridge] It is time for me to sleep Tonight's sleep is just one night of sleep yet there are moments Tiny fractures of a fraction of a second; a split between the very decimal places where when I see your face I am purely happy Followed by another— where once I realize I've lived so long without you —I wish I had never existed at all. The time that comes after those moments could also be measured as a space in between those moments [Outro] And I'll love you forever Even though I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that it doesn't make any sense For that to be true yet, here I am alone and still in love with you