Queen Of My Soul

[Intro] (Slow, haunting acoustic guitar picking—a lonely sound, like a porch swing moving in a dead-still breeze. Distant, low thunder rolls in the background.) (Spoken word, soft and cracking voice) They say time heals, but they don't tell you how long the nights are. 3 days... and it feels like a lifetime. Erica... you’re still the air I breathe. [Verse 1] The side of the bed is colder than a winter midnight now I’m staring at the ceiling, just trying to figure out how To breathe when the lungs of my life have stopped their beating rhythm I’m a ghost in my own house, locked inside this hollow prison. Your scent is on the pillow, it’s fading like the light I’m reaching in the darkness, praying you’re there in the night But there’s only shadows dancing where your laughter used to bloom Just a shattered man standing in a silent, empty room. [Verse 2] I watched you fight the dragon, saw the armor that you wore Stage four tried to break you, but you were the lion at the door With every needle, every drop, you carried grace inside your veins You were teaching me to live while you were wrestling with the pains. You pointed me to better roads when I was lost and straying far You were the needle on the compass, you were my Northern Star And even when the fire burned, you kept your head held high My beautiful, unbreakable, heaven-sent angel in the sky. [Pre-Chorus] I’m searching for the purpose, I’m digging through the dirt I’m trying to find a reason underneath this mountain of hurt My hands are shaking, looking at the life you left behind I’m losing track of reality, losing my peace of mind. [Chorus] Oh, you were the Queen of my heart, the steady beat of my soul You were the only one who ever truly made me whole I held you in my arms when the last of the light began to fade I watched you give your all, watched the greatest sacrifice made And I shattered to the floor, broke in a million pieces of glass Begging for the clock to stop, begging for the pain to pass Erica, my everything, my wife, my spirit, and my breath I’ll be seeking answers for you, 'til the moment of my death. [Verse 3] You were the Queen of Spades, watching over me with care Now I’m looking at your pictures, just trying to find you there You taught me how to be a man, how to stand for what is right Now I’m stumbling in the darkness, terrified of the night. It isn’t fair that the angels wanted you home so soon I’m howling at the silence, I’m screaming at the moon Why did the best of us have to go? Why’d the colors have to gray? I’m just a broken record, playing the same tune every day. [Verse 4] I remember the way you’d look at me, with that fire in your eyes Knowing all my flaws and loving me through all my messy lies You didn’t judge the struggle, you just grabbed my hand and walked You listened to the secrets that I never even talked. That’s the beauty of our simple life, the sweat, the blood, the tears Building a kingdom on nothing, conquering all our fears Now the foundation is cracked, and the roof is caving in Without you as my witness, tell me, where do I begin? [Bridge] (Tempo slows, drums become heavy and distorted, like a heartbeat) I have questions for the heavens, I have questions for the stars I’m gonna carry them with me, alongside all these scars Did you feel me holding you? Did you know I wouldn’t leave? Did you feel my heart shattering underneath my sleeve? I’ll never stop searching, I’ll never stop the quest Until I see your face again, and put this soul to rest. [Verse 5] You’re in the wind that rustles the trees, you’re in the rain that falls I hear your voice in the quiet, echoing off these walls You chose to be with me, you chose this complicated heart And even though you’re gone, we’ll never be apart. I’ll raise our legacy, I’ll keep your memory alive I’ll struggle through the sorrow, I’ll make sure that we survive Because that’s what a King does for the Queen he lost too soon I’m still right here, baby, beneath this lonely afternoon. [Guitar/Instrumental Break] (A heavy, slow-burning electric guitar solo—wailing, bluesy, and mournful. It screams with the pain of the lyrics, eventually fading into a single, clean acoustic guitar note.) [Outro] I don’t know how to live without you... But I know how to love you. Forever is a long time, but it ain’t long enough. Rest easy, my Queen. My Erica. (Fade to silence)