(Intro - Spoken / Soft vocal over keys) "Dear Mama... I know you did what you thought was right... but you ain't have to kill him in my dreams before I even knew his name..." (Verse 1) I used to ask 'bout my daddy, you'd change the channel Say he wasn't shit, just another deadbeat scandal I believed you, 'cause you was my world, my rock Till I found his number in your old dresser lock Called him up one summer, he picked up on the first ring Said "Baby girl, I been waiting, I bought you everything" He got receipts for child support, you sent 'em back Said you didn't want his money, you wanted his soul attached But you couldn't have his heart, so you took his seed Turned his daughter to a stranger, that's a different breed You was hurt, I get it, he chose the streets But you chose revenge over my peace, baby, that's defeat (Chorus - Melodic, Painful) You kept my daddy from me, but you couldn't keep his face Every time I look in the mirror, I see his eyes, his grace You played them mind games, bitter 'cause he left Now I'm the one who's carrying all of that theft Mama, why you lock the door when he was knockin'? Now I'm grown and my heart is still rockin' From the damage, the silence, the questions I can't ask You made me hate my own reflection, that's a heavy task (Verse 2 - Faster flow, building anger) And what about my brother? He ain't never had a man To teach him how to be one, now he's wild in the land Got a baby on the way, he don't know how to stay 'Cause you showed him that a father ain't here to stay You said "all men leave," so he became what you feared Now he's out here doing life, and you can't even shed a tear 'Cause you started this cycle, you lit the fuse Thought you was punishing him, but you made us lose The game, the name, the lineage, the shame Now my brother's in a cell, and he don't even know your pain He just knows you kept his pops away from every game Now he's throwin' punches at the world, feelin' lame (Chorus - More intense, beat hits harder) You kept my daddy from me, but you couldn't keep his face Every time I look in the mirror, I see his eyes, his grace You played them mind games, bitter 'cause he left Now I'm the one who's carrying all of that theft Mama, why you lock the door when he was knockin'? Now I'm grown and my heart is still rockin' From the damage, the silence, the questions I can't ask You made me hate my own reflection, that's a heavy task (Bridge - Raw, spoken-sung, beat strips down) And the worst part? He ain't never hit you, never cheated on you, never lied He just fell out of love, and you couldn't let it slide So you took his kids like a trophy, like a weapon Now I'm 25, and I'm still learnin' lessons On how to love, how to trust, how to not be you 'Cause I see the bitterness in me, and it's true You passed it down like a heirloom, like a curse And now I gotta break it, or I'll end up worse (Final Chorus - Emotional, almost crying) You kept my daddy from me, but you couldn't keep my soul Now I'm finding him on Facebook, tryna make him whole He got a new family now, but he still asks 'bout me Says he prayed for me every single night, Mama, can't you see? You played them games, but you lost your own child I'm not your weapon, I'm not your exile I forgive you, but I gotta leave this pain behind 'Cause I refuse to let your hurt become my mind (Outro - Beat fades, soft keys) To every mama listening... let him see his son Let her know her father, before her life is done 'Cause the child ain't the enemy, the pain is just the rent And you don't gotta pay it back... you just gotta repent ,……polo energy
