„SILENCE HAS MY VOICE”

[Intro] This isn’t ordinary sadness, Nor just a fleeting fear. It’s a war that leaves another scar Inside me every day. [Verse 1] Emotional collapse is written deep inside my dreams, Every day feels like a march across burning shards beneath my feet. People say, “Pull yourself together,” as if it’s something easy, They never see the demons I keep beneath the light when darkness needs me. My smile became a mechanism, rehearsed and worn for show, Because real pain scares people faster than cold despair could ever do. I carry emptiness much heavier than concrete walls and steel, And insomnia sleeps beside me every night like a parasite that’s real. I don’t miss people anymore — I miss peaceful sleep instead, One single day without the chaos pounding through my head. I long for silence that doesn’t sound like funerals of broken souls, But like a place where human beings finally breathe and feel whole. [Pre-Chorus] My mind keeps directing catastrophic movies frame by frame, And even in complete silence I can hear the sirens scream my name. Every thought intoxicates my body like a cloud of chemical smoke, And loneliness more often speaks to me with my own voice. [Chorus] Silence has my voice And breathes with all my fears. Loneliness sleeps beside me Beneath a shattered roof each night. Despair keeps staring through the windows With lifeless, hollow eyes, While I keep trying to survive Another day without strength inside. I scream so loudly deep within That I can barely hear myself, Though on the outside I appear As calm and pale as some lost ghost. Because the greatest wars are fought Where scars remain unseen, Inside the minds of broken souls Who learn to survive alone each day. [Verse 2] My emotions live on the borderline between affection and rage, One single word can turn tranquility into unbearable pain. Sometimes I crave affection more than lungs are craving air, And sometimes I run from people like a wounded animal in storms. I cannot trust my feelings — they are broken like a wheel, Sometimes leading me toward the light, Sometimes into fields of thorns. And maybe what hurts most Is this absurd and cruel design: A human being longs for love Yet fears the changes love may bring. So I sit awake at night Analyzing every sign, As though one message could erase The terror living in my mind. My phone glows empty like abandoned buildings in the rain, And the coldness of my room resembles endless shades of grey. Some people drown their suffering In alcohol or sleep, I became addicted to the chaos Living somewhere deep in me. Because when you’ve lived too long Among emotional wounds and scars, Peace itself begins to feel Like something foreign and bizarre. [Bridge] Perhaps that’s why it’s difficult For anyone to truly love me, Because I’m both the fire and the ashes Living in the same dream. A soul begging for warmth, For gentle hands and closeness near, Only to build another wall A moment later out of fear. [Final Chorus] Silence wears my voice And talks to me each night. And longing digs its fingernails Deeper underneath my skin. Every memory returns Like poisonous black dust, Reminding me of everything That I have lost within. Even when I laugh Beneath the bright lights of the city, The war inside me still goes on, Untouched by passing time. Because some souls are born already fractured by their scars, And spend their whole lives learning how to breathe despite the loss. [Outro] And if you understand these words And all their heavy tone, Then maybe you’re still fighting Through your darkness on your own.