Lost in a world without proof that I even exist.walking day by day through my minds mist…only thing that seems real is the scars on my wrist that cast my shadow into the ebiss……. I cant look in mirror at all I feel like static Nothing but an addict To embarrassed to stand tall These days ,,just crawl Wake up confused and totally disoriented,we’re here for the glory aint we….. just waiting on the next lesson for my mind to mentally mind rape fuck me and leaves me held accountable for seeing troubles in double,get it double trouble.fade away to tomorrow in yesterdays bubble.which in turns keeps me here to burn….burn in my worries,….behind my fake mask face lies something I can’t even grasp taste…. Cant look into a mirror The image is unclear To embarrassed to stand To affraid to fall So these days just crawl not trained to face what I’m bout to face without style ,without grace. Stuck right here in this space,,,dont wanna even be part of the human race,theres no win for me,i dont wanna go down in history,i only wanna be remembered in few different memories,other than that im to let my line go flat ,these days theres nothing holding me back.only got my mom an no brother dont even have a significant other no cheeks of Rosie my kids disowned me,so guess im free to the best piece of shit i can be,,,, Dont look in the mirror But it’s starting to get clearer Of course it’s gona show my worst fear Thats me right here Alone,hated, memory faded Totally Out dated the only way I’ll go down in history yup,,,,,,yup,,,,, thats me I don’t pop up in anyone’s mind,no reason to hide cuz no one’s lookin for me to find, all I got is me and time, time use to keep me in a bind, unable to feel sublime,always cut me off,it’s the end of the line,,,, it’s only right in the moment of the realization of knowing your nothing but your own creation for what ever reason,your self an no pleasing,no reason for teasing in reality i don’t even know the meaning,,,,towards death i keep leaning…….for closure i keep fiening, Behind all this what my reason for being,,,,,theres no mystery on why im not in history ….. Now I look in mirror It’s perfectly clear And my worst fear is finally here eyes flooded with tears how can this be That image i see Is the image of ME…..please God please Howww can this Beee on my knees to u i plee............ End me.............set me free.
