The Last Thing I'd Say

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**THE LAST THING I'D SAY**

**(Hook)**

If I could talk to you tonight,
there's a thousand things I'd say.
I'd probably start with "I miss you,"
then I'd break down halfway.
I don't need another lifetime,
I just need another day.
If I only get one sentence,
"I love you" is what I'd say.

If I could talk to you tonight,
I'd tell you everything has changed.
I've been learning how to live
with a hole that never fades.
And I know I have to carry on,
but that don't mean I'm okay.
If I only get one moment,
I'd hold you and never let go away.

**(Verse 1)**

I wonder if you know how much your absence follows me,
How a simple little memory can turn into a tragedy.
One second I'm just living, next I'm buried in the history,
Digging through the pieces of a life that you were part of with me.

I still remember being younger, when forever felt automatic,
Never thinking every ordinary day could turn dramatic.
We were living in the moment, never knowing time was passing,
Now I'm searching through those moments like they're all that I have left.

I would've listened closer if I knew what I know now,
Would've stayed a little longer, wouldn't rush to leave the house.
Would've told you I was proud of you instead of thinking I'd have time,
That's the kind of regret that doesn't disappear with time.

And I hate that I can't fix it.
I hate that I can't change it.
I hate that every "what if"
still feels like an open case.
I know I can't go backward,
but my heart don't understand.
It keeps reaching for somebody
that I can never touch again.

**(Hook)**

**(Verse 2)**

I got older without you, and I don't know how to process that,
Every year I move ahead, but a part of me stays where you left at.
Every milestone comes with happiness and then a little setback,
'Cause I turn to share the moment, then remember I can't text back.

That's the shit nobody warns you about when somebody dies,
You don't only lose their presence, you lose all the future time.
All the birthdays you imagined, all the conversations in between,
All the things they would've witnessed, all the people they'd have seen.

I wonder what you'd think about the man that I'm becoming,
Would you hear these songs and understand the places that they're coming from?
Would you recognize the pain underneath the confidence and bravado?
Would you tell me I'm doing good, then make a joke about it after?

I wish I could hear that.

God, I wish I could hear that.

I would take the smallest moment
if it meant you could be near me.

I don't need some perfect reunion
with the sky opening above me.

Just give me one more conversation.

One more time.

One more memory
that doesn't have to end with goodbye.

**(Bridge)**

And maybe this is what I needed to say:

I'm sorry.

I'm angry.

I'm grateful.

I'm broken.

I'm healing.

I'm still here.

And I don't know how to make all of those things
exist inside me at the same time.

But they do.

I can miss you
and still smile.

I can love you
and keep living.

I can move forward
without moving on from you.

Because moving on would feel like leaving you behind.

And I won't do that.

**(Verse 3)**

So I'll keep your name alive in every room that I enter,
Not as somebody I lost, but somebody I still remember.
Every scar became a chapter, every memory a letter,
Every song another promise that I'll carry you forever.

I know there will be mornings when the pain ain't quite as heavy,
Then a random little memory will hit me when I'm least ready.
And I'll probably still break down, even years from now, already knowing
that the heart don't follow calendars just because the world keeps going.

I don't want to forget your face.
I don't want the details fading.
I don't want your voice becoming
something I have to recreate.

So I'll keep the pictures.

Keep the stories.

Keep the parts of you that stayed.

And when somebody asks me who you were,
I won't just tell them how you died.

I'll tell them how you laughed.

I'll tell them who you were to me.

I'll tell them you were my brother.

And I'll say your name
like I'm still expecting you to answer.

**(Final Hook)**

If I could talk to you tonight,
I'd tell you everything has changed.
I'd tell you that I'm still here,
even though some days I hate that.

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**THE LAST THING I'D SAY** **(Hook)** If I could talk to you tonight, there's a thousand things I'd say. I'd probably start with "I miss you," then I'd break down halfway. I don't need another lifetime, I just need another day. If I only get one sentence, "I love you" is what I'd say. If I could talk to you tonight, I'd tell you everything has changed. I've been learning how to live with a hole that never fades. And I know I have to carry on, but that don't mean I'm okay. If I only get one moment, I'd hold you and never let go away. **(Verse 1)** I wonder if you know how much your absence follows me, How a simple little memory can turn into a tragedy. One second I'm just living, next I'm buried in the history, Digging through the pieces of a life that you were part of with me. I still remember being younger, when forever felt automatic, Never thinking every ordinary day could turn dramatic. We were living in the moment, never knowing time was passing, Now I'm searching through those moments like they're all that I have left. I would've listened closer if I knew what I know now, Would've stayed a little longer, wouldn't rush to leave the house. Would've told you I was proud of you instead of thinking I'd have time, That's the kind of regret that doesn't disappear with time. And I hate that I can't fix it. I hate that I can't change it. I hate that every "what if" still feels like an open case. I know I can't go backward, but my heart don't understand. It keeps reaching for somebody that I can never touch again. **(Hook)** If I could talk to you tonight, there's a thousand things I'd say. I'd probably start with "I miss you," then I'd break down halfway. I don't need another lifetime, I just need another day. If I only get one sentence, "I love you" is what I'd say. If I could talk to you tonight, I'd tell you everything has changed. I've been learning how to live with a hole that never fades. And I know I have to carry on, but that don't mean I'm okay. If I only get one moment, I'd hold you and never let go away. **(Verse 2)** I got older without you, and I don't know how to process that, Every year I move ahead, but a part of me stays where you left at. Every milestone comes with happiness and then a little setback, 'Cause I turn to share the moment, then remember I can't text back. That's the shit nobody warns you about when somebody dies, You don't only lose their presence, you lose all the future time. All the birthdays you imagined, all the conversations in between, All the things they would've witnessed, all the people they'd have seen. I wonder what you'd think about the man that I'm becoming, Would you hear these songs and understand the places that they're coming from? Would you recognize the pain underneath the confidence and bravado? Would you tell me I'm doing good, then make a joke about it after? I wish I could hear that. God, I wish I could hear that. I would take the smallest moment if it meant you could be near me. I don't need some perfect reunion with the sky opening above me. Just give me one more conversation. One more time. One more memory that doesn't have to end with goodbye. **(Bridge)** And maybe this is what I needed to say: I'm sorry. I'm angry. I'm grateful. I'm broken. I'm healing. I'm still here. And I don't know how to make all of those things exist inside me at the same time. But they do. I can miss you and still smile. I can love you and keep living. I can move forward without moving on from you. Because moving on would feel like leaving you behind. And I won't do that. **(Verse 3)** So I'll keep your name alive in every room that I enter, Not as somebody I lost, but somebody I still remember. Every scar became a chapter, every memory a letter, Every song another promise that I'll carry you forever. I know there will be mornings when the pain ain't quite as heavy, Then a random little memory will hit me when I'm least ready. And I'll probably still break down, even years from now, already knowing that the heart don't follow calendars just because the world keeps going. I don't want to forget your face. I don't want the details fading. I don't want your voice becoming something I have to recreate. So I'll keep the pictures. Keep the stories. Keep the parts of you that stayed. And when somebody asks me who you were, I won't just tell them how you died. I'll tell them how you laughed. I'll tell them who you were to me. I'll tell them you were my brother. And I'll say your name like I'm still expecting you to answer. **(Final Hook)** If I could talk to you tonight, there's a thousand things I'd say. I'd probably start with "I miss you," then I'd break down halfway. I don't need another lifetime, I just need another day. If I only get one sentence, "I love you" is what I'd say. If I could talk to you tonight, I'd tell you everything has changed. I'd tell you that I'm still here, even though some days I hate that.

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