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Almost Knew Better 🥀

dark atmospheric indie pop, bedroom pop, breathy vocals, soft head voice, restrained belt

[Verse 1]

I know this too well
I’ve done this before
Lie to myself
then ask what for

Knowing full well
the reason why
I’m back here again
just to sit and cry

Same as before
I haven’t settled the score
Just a different face on it
And I fucking hate it more

[brief instrumental break]

[Verse 2]

So I wanna shove these feelings
in my bottom drawer
Leave them there
with all the other shit
collecting dust
from years before

It’s piled and piled
half-finished late-night musings
All the times
I dressed up damage
and called it choosing

Person, place, or drug
it never mattered much
I call it love
when really
I just crave the rush

It all moved too quickly
before I got wise
No way to tell truth
from a damn good disguise

[Pre-Chorus]

You’re just a pattern
stitched from the same old pain
I chased the ghost of you
then let it wear your name

We jumped in with both feet
before either of us knew
Date nights would turn to long flights
time spent waiting for you

Expectations were high
but the bar was set low
And you started to turn
into someone I didn’t know

[Chorus]

You had promise
but I should’ve seen the pattern

You're just another trend gone
out of style
and I’d rather

count every crack in the ceiling twice 
than suffer by your side
and let myself fade
just to keep you satisfied

[Verse 3]

Lately it’s gotten so bad
you argue for no reason at all
You twist every word I say
while every opinion I give hits a wall

Your version of talking is to
confuse me with words on purpose
Make me trip on every sentence
then act like I deserved it

And I heard you last night
say what I always feared
You don’t care about us
So what am I doing here?

[Chorus]

You had promise
but I should’ve seen the pattern

You're just another trend gone
out of style
and I’d rather

count every crack in the ceiling twice 
than suffer by your side
and let myself fade
just to keep you satisfied

[Bridge]

I hate your pattern
your fabric's ugly and faded
And everything in me says toss it
it’s dated

But I held on to hope
somehow I’d forget
all the reasons
that I hated it

You're a trend that turned out
to be overrated
Time to shove you in my closet
With the shit 
I should already have donated

[Bridge continuation]

Clothes that don’t fit
still hanging around
Just to remind me
who I was
when my life was burning down

Something ugly
something familiar
something I swore I outgrew
But I try it on again
just to see....
if it finally feels new

[Final Refrain – build]

You had promise
I didn't recognize your pattern

You're just another look
that deceived
and now I know
that I would rather

fold the same clothes
scrub the same stain
spend all day long
in the pouring rain

til I go numb
watch life fade to black
count all the hours
I’ll never get back

[Outro – quiet drop]

We don't fit
we never will
And I'm done ripping at the seams
against my will

[brief soft instrumental outro]

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[Verse 1] I know this too well I’ve done this before Lie to myself then ask what for Knowing full well the reason why I’m back here again just to sit and cry Same as before I haven’t settled the score Just a different face on it And I fucking hate it more [brief instrumental break] [Verse 2] So I wanna shove these feelings in my bottom drawer Leave them there with all the other shit collecting dust from years before It’s piled and piled half-finished late-night musings All the times I dressed up damage and called it choosing Person, place, or drug it never mattered much I call it love when really I just crave the rush It all moved too quickly before I got wise No way to tell truth from a damn good disguise [Pre-Chorus] You’re just a pattern stitched from the same old pain I chased the ghost of you then let it wear your name We jumped in with both feet before either of us knew Date nights would turn to long flights time spent waiting for you Expectations were high but the bar was set low And you started to turn into someone I didn’t know [Chorus] You had promise but I should’ve seen the pattern You're just another trend gone out of style and I’d rather count every crack in the ceiling twice than suffer by your side and let myself fade just to keep you satisfied [Verse 3] Lately it’s gotten so bad you argue for no reason at all You twist every word I say while every opinion I give hits a wall Your version of talking is to confuse me with words on purpose Make me trip on every sentence then act like I deserved it And I heard you last night say what I always feared You don’t care about us So what am I doing here? [Chorus] You had promise but I should’ve seen the pattern You're just another trend gone out of style and I’d rather count every crack in the ceiling twice than suffer by your side and let myself fade just to keep you satisfied [Bridge] I hate your pattern your fabric's ugly and faded And everything in me says toss it it’s dated But I held on to hope somehow I’d forget all the reasons that I hated it You're a trend that turned out to be overrated Time to shove you in my closet With the shit I should already have donated [Bridge continuation] Clothes that don’t fit still hanging around Just to remind me who I was when my life was burning down Something ugly something familiar something I swore I outgrew But I try it on again just to see.... if it finally feels new [Final Refrain – build] You had promise I didn't recognize your pattern You're just another look that deceived and now I know that I would rather fold the same clothes scrub the same stain spend all day long in the pouring rain til I go numb watch life fade to black count all the hours I’ll never get back [Outro – quiet drop] We don't fit we never will And I'm done ripping at the seams against my will [brief soft instrumental outro]

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