[Verse 1] Seven years I sharpened knives Seven years I cursed your name I built my life on hating you And I was good at playing that game I followed you through every night I watched you breathe, I watched you sleep I thought your hands had touched my wife I thought your sins were mine to keep [Pre-chorus] Then you said it wasn't true You swore you never touched her skin And something broke inside of me The walls I built came crumbling in [Chorus] What do I do with all this rage? Where does it go when it's not real? Seven years I called you monster Now I don't know what to feel I broke her office. Broke the glass. I screamed at ghosts that weren't there. And then I came home. Fell in your arms. And you just held me. You just cared. [Verse 2] You held my face. You made me look. You said "I never hurt her, Bill." And in your eyes I saw the truth That I'd been chasing something still I wanted to hit you. Wanted to scream. Wanted to blame you for the pain. But you just whispered "I love you" And I broke. Again. Again. [Pre-chorus] I laid you down. You climbed on top. You moved so slow. You took your time. And I felt something in my chest Give way. Give in. Give up the crime. [Chorus] What do I do with all this rage? Where does it go when it's not real? Seven years I called you monster Now I don't know what to feel I broke her office. Broke the glass. I screamed at ghosts that weren't there. And then I came home. Fell in your arms. And you just held me. You just cared. [Bridge — spoken, raw, almost breaking] "I don't know who I am without the hate." "I know." "I don't know what to do with my hands." "I know." "I don't know how to be just... a man." "Then be mine. Just be mine." And I turned you over. I couldn't look at you. I buried my face in your neck and I fucked you Like I was trying to kill something inside me. Like I was trying to bury seven years. And you held me. You held me so tight. You said "I love you" again and again. And I wanted to cry. God, I wanted to cry. But I didn't. I couldn't. Not then. [Final chorus — soft, breaking into release] But I said it. In the dark. When you were sleeping. I said "I love you, John." Quiet. Real. Deep. And something shifted in the room. Something died. Something was born. And I held you. Lazy. From behind. Face buried in your neck. And I didn't let go. I didn't let go. [Outro — fading, whispered] Seven years I hunted you. Now I just want to stay. The hate is gone. The rage is through. And I'm here. With you. Just a man. Not a ghost. Loving you the most. [Final breath] John.
