[Verse 1] I never wanted to be this sick Born mistake, called heretic Silent kid, no clever tricks No place to stand, no box to tick Half-brother — yeah, I'm half of shit Wrong blood line — yeah, it never fits Mom moved on, she won’t admit That I was the glitch, the one she split Stepdad cold, yeah, barely speaks Real dad gone — gone two weeks Back in town, won’t look my way Guess I’m the fuck-up they won’t say Fake at school, pathetic pick Known as "his brother," not worth a flick Not smart, not tough, not good, not quick Just background noise — just the heretic They talk, I nod, I fake, I sit I laugh on cue, I swallow it I dream in black, my hope is thin I wear a face that don’t fit skin I never wanted to be their trick Their scapegoat freak, their lunatic I bleed in chords, I speak in static No god for me — just heretic [Pre-Chorus] I don’t talk ‘cause I don’t belong I bite my tongue when I know I’m wrong I breathe too loud, I think too much I break what I hold, I ruin what I touch I'm tired of this skin, it's wearing thin I'm tired of the noise that lives within I don't want help, I don't want light I want the silence that comes at night. [Chorus] Heretic, heretic — nothing fits Nothing works, nothing clicks Wrong in the soul, wrong in the chest Wrong in the way that I digest Heretic, heretic — make it stop Every word’s another drop I’m not good, I’m not fixed I'm not worth the time it takes [Post-Chorus] Leave me here, just let it stick Die like a dog, die like a trick I’m not scared, just fucking sick Not a son, not a boy — just heretic [Verse 2] I hear static in the shape of my name Words melt sideways, nothing stays the same Shadows crawl backwards — they don’t even ask I drink from the mirror and choke on the glass The sky hums wrong, the floor won’t keep still I sleep through screams and dream of the kill I’m not me, I’m not real — I’m dust in the mouth I count every breath like I’m counting down Teeth in the carpet Hands through the wall My voice is too soft My head is too small Chalk in my spine God in my throat Bleed through the numbers Forget what I wrote Stop. Start. Wrong part. Don’t cry. Don’t start. Too loud. Too tight. What day? What night? Eat guilt. Spit skin. Swallow lies. Smile thin. Say sorry Say still Say nothing Until— [Chorus] Heretic, heretic — nothing fits Nothing works, nothing clicks Wrong in the soul, wrong in the chest Wrong in the way that I digest Heretic, heretic — make it stop Every word’s another drop I’m not good, I’m not fixed I'm not worth the time it takes [Instrumental Outro Breakdown]
