No Stars

Tuesday afternoon, it hits me midday No dramatic dawn, no fairy tale pretend Flying creatures swarm but never touch the ground I've memorized this world where myths aren't allowed Going through the day, no time no stars for us Just unsentimental sleet and skies above And they told me not to feel Not to bleed, not to reveal (No heart, no heart, no heart in this story) No stars in my sky tonight No beautiful lies, just the cold dark night Everyone's alive but barely breathing aright No stars, no stars, I'm fine with it No stars, no stars, I'm fine (I'm fine, I'm fine, I swear I'm fine with it) No shattered glass, no metaphoric pain Just tiny things cutting through the rain I'm alive and that's enough to get me by No need for pomegranates painting crimson skies No monarchs, moths or childhood memories Just the witching hour, midday for me And they told me not to feel Not to bleed, not to reveal (No heart, there's no heart in this story) No stars in my sky tonight No beautiful lies, just the cold dark night Everyone's alive but barely breathing aright No stars, no stars, I'm fine with it No stars, no stars, I'm fine (I'm fine, I'm fine, I swear I'm fine with it) But what if I told you I walked last night Breathing deep for the first time In a year, truly glad to be alive What if I confessed I almost cried In the street beneath them all The stars I'm not supposed to see (and I swear that they do shine) No stars in my sky tonight No beautiful lies, just the cold dark night Everyone's alive but barely breathing aright No stars, no stars, I'm fine with it No stars, no stars, I'm fine (I'm fine, I'm fine, I swear I'm fine with it) There will be no stars—the story's had enough But between you and me, I've had enough of us