Big Ego

Lyrics by BlueSoundscapes

[Intro]
Yeah
I know
You dont have to explain it to me

[Verse 1]
I got accustomed to the compliments consequently confident
Now every consequence of doubting me seems somewhat inconsequential
I dont need a room to validate the way I carry it
Ive seen enough results to know the arrogance is warranted

Maybe thats an ugly way of putting it Ill grant you that
But Ive never been particularly good at taking back
Anything I said because somebody didnt like the sound of it
If the shoe fits Im probably the one who designed it

I hear the little comments all the carefully concealed contempt
The must be nice and who does he think he is with every compliment
I dont take offense I find it kind of flattering
Imagine taking time to hate somebody whos barely noticed you exist

Thats not entirely true though
Id be lying if I said I never check
A criticism can stick for days a hundred compliments get buried underneath it
Thats the inconvenient part of thinking highly of yourself
The higher you build it the more there is to protect

[Pre Chorus]
And I know the difference
Between confidence and compensation
One says I know what I can do
The other needs an audience

[Chorus]
Ive got a big ego
Maybe bigger than it needs to be
I dont need you to believe it
But I like it when you agree
Ive got a big ego
And it rarely lets me sleep
Funny how the higher that I climb
The more there is beneath my feet

[Verse 2]
I dont confuse attention with respect theyre separate currencies
One can buy a moment the other follows you considerably
Ive had enough of both to recognize the difference instantly
So I stopped performing for approval and started moving deliberately

Thats when they call you arrogant when you quit explaining every choice
When you stop translating thoughts just so somebody hears your voice
Apparently restraint looks like superiority from a certain point of view
But if I know what I mean I dont need a committee telling me its true

I can admit when Im wrong thats not the issue
Its just irritating when the person correcting me is an idiot
Theres a difference between humility and pretending youre beneath it
And I refuse to shrink myself so somebody else can feel significant

I know Ive got a habit of inflating every victory
Turning minor accomplishments into personal mythology
Maybe thats narcissistic maybe its just memory
I remember every door that shut and every person who underestimated me

So when something finally works yeah I enjoy it
Im not gonna act embarrassed just because somebody else avoids it
If I spent years constructing something let me stand beside it
You can call it ego I call it finally being honest about it

[Verse 3]
Theres a strange psychology to constantly expecting more
You can win and still be wondering what the next ones for
Every accomplishment depreciates the second that its yours
So you raise the bar again and start resenting what you conquered before

Thats the part I never advertise
The polished version doesnt mention the anxiety
Its easy to look egotistical when you hide the uncertainty
When nobody gets to see the hours spent dismantling your certainty

I dont actually think Im flawless
That would be fucking boring
I know exactly where Im weak
I just dont make a public story of it

And maybe thats what people misunderstand
I dont need to think Im better than everybody
I just refuse to automatically assume Im worse

If that makes me arrogant
Fine
Ive been called worse

[Bridge]
Maybe the ego isnt the disease
Maybe its the scar tissue
Something I built around the parts of me
I didnt want anybody getting to

[Final Chorus]
Ive got a big ego
Maybe bigger than it needs to be
I dont need you to believe it
But I like what it does for me
Ive got a big ego
And I know what that implies
Maybe I dont love myself too much
Maybe I just hate wasting time

[Outro]
So yeah
Its an ego

Its obnoxious
Its useful
Its expensive

And unfortunately

It fits me pretty well

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Lyrics by BlueSoundscapes [Intro] Yeah I know You dont have to explain it to me [Verse 1] I got accustomed to the compliments consequently confident Now every consequence of doubting me seems somewhat inconsequential I dont need a room to validate the way I carry it Ive seen enough results to know the arrogance is warranted Maybe thats an ugly way of putting it Ill grant you that But Ive never been particularly good at taking back Anything I said because somebody didnt like the sound of it If the shoe fits Im probably the one who designed it I hear the little comments all the carefully concealed contempt The must be nice and who does he think he is with every compliment I dont take offense I find it kind of flattering Imagine taking time to hate somebody whos barely noticed you exist Thats not entirely true though Id be lying if I said I never check A criticism can stick for days a hundred compliments get buried underneath it Thats the inconvenient part of thinking highly of yourself The higher you build it the more there is to protect [Pre Chorus] And I know the difference Between confidence and compensation One says I know what I can do The other needs an audience [Chorus] Ive got a big ego Maybe bigger than it needs to be I dont need you to believe it But I like it when you agree Ive got a big ego And it rarely lets me sleep Funny how the higher that I climb The more there is beneath my feet [Verse 2] I dont confuse attention with respect theyre separate currencies One can buy a moment the other follows you considerably Ive had enough of both to recognize the difference instantly So I stopped performing for approval and started moving deliberately Thats when they call you arrogant when you quit explaining every choice When you stop translating thoughts just so somebody hears your voice Apparently restraint looks like superiority from a certain point of view But if I know what I mean I dont need a committee telling me its true I can admit when Im wrong thats not the issue Its just irritating when the person correcting me is an idiot Theres a difference between humility and pretending youre beneath it And I refuse to shrink myself so somebody else can feel significant I know Ive got a habit of inflating every victory Turning minor accomplishments into personal mythology Maybe thats narcissistic maybe its just memory I remember every door that shut and every person who underestimated me So when something finally works yeah I enjoy it Im not gonna act embarrassed just because somebody else avoids it If I spent years constructing something let me stand beside it You can call it ego I call it finally being honest about it [Chorus] Ive got a big ego Maybe bigger than it needs to be I dont need you to believe it But I like it when you agree Ive got a big ego And it rarely lets me sleep Funny how the higher that I climb The more there is beneath my feet [Verse 3] Theres a strange psychology to constantly expecting more You can win and still be wondering what the next ones for Every accomplishment depreciates the second that its yours So you raise the bar again and start resenting what you conquered before Thats the part I never advertise The polished version doesnt mention the anxiety Its easy to look egotistical when you hide the uncertainty When nobody gets to see the hours spent dismantling your certainty I dont actually think Im flawless That would be fucking boring I know exactly where Im weak I just dont make a public story of it And maybe thats what people misunderstand I dont need to think Im better than everybody I just refuse to automatically assume Im worse If that makes me arrogant Fine Ive been called worse [Bridge] Maybe the ego isnt the disease Maybe its the scar tissue Something I built around the parts of me I didnt want anybody getting to [Final Chorus] Ive got a big ego Maybe bigger than it needs to be I dont need you to believe it But I like what it does for me Ive got a big ego And I know what that implies Maybe I dont love myself too much Maybe I just hate wasting time [Outro] So yeah Its an ego Its obnoxious Its useful Its expensive And unfortunately It fits me pretty well

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