[Intro] [quiet / close-mic] I kept saying I was okay Till the silence stopped believing me [Verse 1] I carried conversations With tears behind my teeth Smiling just enough So nobody worried about me And maybe I got too good At surviving every room Making pain look graceful While it quietly consumed [Pre-Chorus] Oh… I can feel it underneath Every little thing I never said Still breathing in me [Chorus] I don’t wanna disappear inside myself again Don’t wanna keep pretending I’m stronger than I am If my voice shakes tonight Then maybe that’s the truth I spent so long surviving I forgot what feeling do [Verse 2] There’s anger in my bloodstream There’s exhaustion in my smile I kept giving people light While I burned the whole time And every time I needed help I convinced myself to wait Till all the quiet pressure Started cracking through my face [Bridge] [minimal instrumentation] I was hurting Long before anybody noticed I just learned how to hide it beautifully [Final Chorus] I don’t wanna disappear inside myself again I just wanna feel human Without apologizing for it If my heart breaks tonight At least it finally moved And maybe being honest Is the closest thing to truth [Outro] [barely above a whisper] …this is what I really sound like
