[HOOK] I don't feel like I belong here I been standing in the room like I'm not there You don't see me, you just see what you made up Then you laugh when I get tired of the fake love I don't know if blood mean family I don't know if friends understand me I been right here tryna show you who I am But you keep talking to the person that I can't be [VERSE 1] I walk in and the whole room shift Same jokes with the same loose lips You don't know what that shit do to me You just know how to laugh when the mood hit I ain't soft, I just peep disrespect I been quiet but I don't disconnect I just watch how you talk when you think I won't check Then you switch when I give you the truth in my chest And I don't wanna be the problem But you make me feel like I'm the problem Every time I try to tell you how it feel You turn my pain to a topic You don't ask about the nights I ain't sleep You don't ask why my mind stay running You just bring up who I used to be Like I ain't been fighting to become something I been losing my patience I been losing my place I been losing the people That I thought wouldn't change But it ain't cuz they left It's the look on they face When I walk in the circle And still feel away Cuz you make me the outsider Then act confused when I stay out You put dirt on my name Then tell me I need to calm down I got pain in my phone I got words I don't send now I put pain in the booth Cuz the beat don't pretend now [HOOK] I don't feel like I belong here I been standing in the room like I'm not there You don't see me, you just see what you made up Then you laugh when I get tired of the fake love I don't know if blood mean family I don't know if friends understand me I been right here tryna show you who I am But you keep talking to the person that I can't be [VERSE 2] Tell me why I gotta shrink for you Tell me why I gotta think for you Tell me why you get to cut me open Then decide what the wound should do You don't know me like you say you do You just know what you can use You just know the old stories You can throw in my face when you need proof And I don't know what family mean If the love come with strings If the blood turn cold When I start needing things If the house got lights But I still can't breathe If the door stay open But it don't feel free I been asking myself Is it blood or respect Is it love or control Is it truth or regret Is it family if I gotta beg to be seen Is it real if I gotta keep breaking my neck Cuz I been there for people That won't stand up for me I been real with some people That won't handle the real me They want easy, they want quiet They want jokes, they want old me They don't want the one that grew Cuz the new me don't fold easy And I still got love I don't know where to put it I still got trust But I don't know who took it I still got a heart But I hide when it open Cuz the last time I showed it They laughed when I broke it [BRIDGE] Don't tell me that I'm tripping I know what I seen Don't tell me that it's love If it don't feel clean Don't tell me that you know me When you don't know me Don't tell me family everything If everything leave I been looking in the mirror Like who gon stay with me I been talking to the ceiling Like who gon pray with me I been putting all my pain in these songs Cuz the room never hear me But the mic don't play with me [HOOK] I don't feel like I belong here I been standing in the room like I'm not there You don't see me, you just see what you made up Then you laugh when I get tired of the fake love I don't know if blood mean family I don't know if friends understand me I been right here tryna show you who I am But you keep talking to the person that I can't be [OUTRO] I ain't gone, I just don't feel invited I ain't cold, I just don't feel respected I ain't changed, I just finally stopped hiding From the part of me y'all never accepted I still love, but I don't know who get it I still hurt, but I don't know who listen I still write, cuz the music don't judge me And right now that's the only thing different
