Another Day

I woke up tired again Like sleep forgot my name Sunlight through the curtains But everything looked grey Coffee going cold beside me Unopened mail on the table Head in my hands, asking How much more can I take? I keep showing up pretending That I’m stronger than I feel I wear the smile to mask what's real Every road I thought would save me Just led somewhere else to break Now I'm standing at the edges Of every choice I didn't make And I know they say “These storms will pass” But some nights They come back twice as bad So tell me why I should fight another day When every step forward Feels the same I’m haunted by ghosts That I can’t push away And I’m so damn tired Of being just “okay” Still breathing somehow Though I’m losing my way Just trying to find a reason To fight another day There’s a picture on the wall Of someone I used to know Eyes still full of fire Before life dimmed the glow I miss that version of me The one who still believed That healing wasn’t something Only meant for other people And maybe I’m scared That this is all there is to me A body going nowhere And night after night, burying what would never be So tell me why I should fight another day When every step forward Feels the same I’m haunted by ghosts That I can’t push away And I’m so damn tired Of being just “okay” Still breathing somehow Though I’m losing my way Just trying to find a reason To fight another day I know there’s no miracle waiting No sudden light breaking through Maybe surviving is smaller than that Just one more night staring at the truth One more sunrise One more breath One more chance Not to disappear yet So maybe I’ll Fight another day Even if hope only comes In muted shades of grey Maybe these scars Don’t have to fade To prove I survived The weight And maybe it’s enough Just not walking away If all I can do tonight Is fight another day I woke up tired again But I’m still here... Still here...