[Intro Spoken] Yeah They say it takes the edge off But nobody talks about what it takes with it Mm [Verse 1] I pour every night into glasses of regret Drowning thoughts I been dodging the ones I ain’t faced yet They say just relax it’s only a drink But it turn my silence into somethin that screams I don’t drink to party I drink to forget Every promise I made that I haven’t kept Every I’m fine I sold with a smile While I been falling apart for a while I tell myself this the last one tonight But the mirror keep lying straight to my eyes I chase numb feelings I run from the pain Wake up worse every time that I fade [Pre Chorus] It starts as a fix then it turns to a friend Now it blowing my phone up like just one again I swear I’m in control but I’m losing the fight Every bottle I beat come back stronger at night [Chorus] I’m at the bottom of the bottle again Looking for peace in a poison I sip I say I’m okay but I’m breaking within Trying to heal with the thing that’s killing me I drown my demons just to see em swim Every promise I break I pretend I don’t care I’m at the bottom of the bottle again Wondering when I stopped wanting to live clear [Verse 2] I miss the version of me before the glass Before I learned how to erase my past Now every memory taste like shame And every good night end in pain I hurt the people who tried to stay Said I got it then pushed em away I don’t need help I don’t need advice But I need another drink just to sleep at night I wake up shaking heart racing fast Trying to piece together what I did in the past Apologies sent but they bleed through the screen When I keep choosing the bottle over peace [Pre Chorus] I told myself I’d stop when it started to show When the nights got darker and my days felt low Now I don’t recognize who I see Just a shadow staring back at me [Chorus] I’m at the bottom of the bottle again Looking for love in a liquid lie I say I’m okay but I’m barely hanging in Trying to feel alive just to survive I drown my demons just to see em swim Every step I take feel harder to stand I’m at the bottom of the bottle again With my future slipping through my hands [Spoken Low Honest] I don’t even like the taste anymore I just like the quiet [Bridge] If I’m honest I’m scared of being sober Of feeling everything I tried to cover But I’m more scared of staying this way Losing myself a little more every day I don’t wanna die with a glass in my hand Saying one more drink instead of I am I don’t want my pain to be all that I’m known I just want to feel something without feeling alone [Final Chorus] I was at the bottom of the bottle again But maybe this time I’m done digging in I’m tired of running tired of the fight Tired of drowning just to survive the night I know healing hurts but so does the drink Only one of em help me breathe I was at the bottom of the bottle again But I don’t wanna live here I don’t wanna live here anymore [Outro Soft] Yeah This isn’t goodbye to the pain It’s goodbye to pretending the bottle was ever there
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