[Intro] BLEGH! [Verse 1 – Screamed, raw and desperate] I KEEP THROWING THE ASHES AT THE WALL WAITING FOR SOMETHING TO GROW EVERY NIGHT I DIG DEEPER INTO THE FALL AND CALL IT LEARNING HOW TO LET GO I BLEED ON PURPOSE JUST TO FEEL THE CHANGE WRITE IT DOWN LIKE IT MIGHT SAVE ME BUT THE WOUNDS KEEP TALKING IN THE SAME OLD WAY AND NOTHING EVER FUCKING CHANGES ME [Pre-Chorus – building, half-clean / half-screamed] I’ve been trying to turn the dark into gold But it just stains my hands and gets cold [Chorus – Sung, melodic, aching] I just want to make something useful Out of everything that’s breaking me I just want to make something useful Before it buries what’s left of me I’ve been burning every piece I find Hoping the smoke will leave a sign I just want to make something useful Before I disappear this time [Verse 2 – Screamed, more intense] I KEEP GIVING THE HURT A NEW NAME LIKE IT MIGHT FINALLY LISTEN EVERY SCAR IS ANOTHER FAILED ATTEMPT TO TURN THE POISON INTO WISDOM I POUR IT INTO EVERY SONG I WRITE LIKE THE PAIN MIGHT LEARN TO OBEY BUT IT ONLY GETS LOUDER IN THE QUIET AND LAUGHS AT EVERY WORD I SAY [Pre-Chorus – heavier] I’ve been trying to turn the dark into gold But it just stains my hands and gets cold [Chorus – Sung, fuller, more layered] I just want to make something useful Out of everything that’s breaking me I just want to make something useful Before it buries what’s left of me I’ve been burning every piece I find Hoping the smoke will leave a sign I just want to make something useful Before I disappear this time [Bridge – clean, vulnerable, building] Maybe the transformation never comes clean Maybe it just keeps taking pieces of me Maybe I’m not meant to turn it into light Maybe I’m just meant to survive the night [Breakdown – heavy, screamed] MAKE IT USEFUL! MAKE IT MEAN SOMETHING! MAKE IT STOP EATING EVERYTHING! I’M STILL HERE — STILL TRYING TO TURN THIS INTO SOMETHING! [Outro – Layered: Bridge + Chorus colliding] [Clean] Maybe the transformation never comes clean Maybe it just keeps taking pieces of me [Screamed under] MAKE IT USEFUL! [Clean] I just want to make something useful Out of everything that’s breaking me [Screamed] BEFORE IT BURIES WHAT’S LEFT OF ME! [Clean + Screamed layered] I’ve been burning every piece I find Hoping the smoke will leave a sign [Screamed] MAKE IT USEFUL! [Clean, fading] I just want to make something useful… Before I disappear this time… [Final layered scream + clean whisper] Something useful… Something useful… (Still trying…)
