[Verse 1] I lit a joint just to quiet the spin, but all it did was bring your name in. Said I’d change, I swore on nothin’, but fuck it — I’m bad at pretending. You said be softer, I tried. You said be honest, I lied. And now I’m half here, half weeded, wonderin’ if love ever needed me this fucked up, this mean, this half-built drama queen. [Chorus] So who do you want me to be? ‘Cause I’ve tried on every version but me. Smokin’ out the window, talkin’ to God, askin’ why I never get the easy parts. If I’m too much, then say it clean — I’ll roll it up and let it leave. But don’t look at me like I could be someone you’d love if I weren’t me. [Verse 2] I called you once just to hear your “hello,” then hung up like a coward, too scared to show. The weed hit hard, but not like your silence, and my reflection don’t survive without guidance. You want peace, but I bring flames. You want grace, but I spit names. And every mirror just shows me scenes of who I was and who I’d be if I could just stop needing someone to fix the bleeding. [Chorus] So who do you want me to be? ‘Cause I’ve tried on every version but me. Smokin’ out the window, talkin’ to ghosts, askin’ if I’m real or just a post. If I’m too lost, then let me be — don’t tie your hope to a fucked-up dream. But don’t look at me like I could be someone you’d love if I weren’t me. [Bridge] I’ve been a lover, a fighter, a girl with a past, a joke at the table, a shot in the glass. I’ve been every word you never said, curled up, too high, cryin’ in your bed. If none of it stuck, then maybe that’s fate — maybe I’m someone you met too late. [Final Chorus] So who do you want me to be? Say it straight, or set me free. Smokin’ in the dark, legs off the side, waitin’ for a version of me to die. If I’m too cracked, then just don’t speak — don’t kiss me soft and call it sweet. You don’t get to dream of who I could be if you can’t love what’s left of me.
