I Always Do

[Verse 1] I learned all the presidents just for fun Then moved on fast — brain said “we’re done” Built a whole app I didn’t need Then forgot the code like it was a dream I watched one show and memorized it all Then dropped the fandom like a missed call Landed a backflip out of the blue No reason why — just felt like I had to It’s not a skill I trained or chose It just shows up… and then it goes [Chorus] I don’t decide what hits — it just begins No warning signs, no way to know what state I’m in But when it does, I’m gone — I’m locked inside My brain goes full hyperdrive, I ride the line Can’t stop it, can’t control it, can’t make it stay It shows up loud, then disappears the same day And I don’t know how — but I know it’s true When I want it bad enough — I always do [Verse 2] I don’t control it — I don’t even try It picks the target, I just comply Could last a weekend or ten whole years Then vanish fast like it was never here It’s strong as hell, but it’s never smart It never asks what I’d choose to start It’s picked some things I can’t defend Like deep dives into fonts, or filing trends It’s power — real, but never planned I get what I want, but I don’t understand [Chorus] I don’t decide what hits — it just begins No warning signs, no way to know what state I’m in But when it does, I’m gone — I’m locked inside My brain goes full hyperdrive, I ride the line Can’t stop it, can’t control it, can’t make it stay It shows up loud, then disappears the same day And I don’t know how — but I know it’s true When I want it bad enough — I always do [Bridge] If I could aim it, I’d never lose Could change the world if I got to choose But it shows up late and leaves too soon I build a rocket — then forget why I wanted to