[Intro] [trumpet lead] I think I got so used to carrying things I forgot what it felt like to put them down [Verse 1] Everybody saw the version That knew exactly what to say But nobody heard the silence I was fighting every day I smiled through exhaustion Made peace with being tired Learned how to keep people warm While I quietly expired And maybe that’s the hardest part Knowing I still gave my best Even while my own heart Could barely get no rest [Pre-Chorus] Oh… I can feel every memory Still living underneath my skin And I— Don’t think I ever let myself Actually feel it then [Chorus] I carry love I carry anger I carry fear I never named I carry pressure in my bloodstream Like it’s running through my veins And every time I almost broke I learned another way to hide But something in me wants to live now Without apologizing why [Verse 2] There’s sadness sitting in my posture There’s hope inside my chest There’s nights I still feel beautiful And nights I feel like less I know what it means to lose yourself Trying to survive the weight Trying to be everything for everybody Till nothing feel the same But somewhere underneath the damage Under every guarded truth There’s still a softer part of me Trying to come through [Bridge] [minimal instrumentation] I don’t want another perfect version I just want peace inside my own voice [Final Chorus] I carry grief I carry healing I carry every part of me The girl that kept surviving quietly And the woman learning how to breathe And maybe all this broken feeling Was never weakness after all Maybe being fully human Means you finally let it all dissolve [Outro] [soft trumpet underneath] …maybe I was worth loving too
