(Intro) Yeah, those old memories were rough. Now I'm making new ones.., yea, better ones... (Verse 1) Damn.... methamphetamine... damn you were so mean, Kept me up all night, chasing that high, a broken scene. All those days and nights, wishing I would just die, Hitting that pipe, beneath a darkened sky. Wishing for death to just take me, and end this endless fight. Looking in the mirror, knowing I needed to change every single day and night. (Chorus) Hit after hit, I'd swear that was it, I'd quit for good this time. But night after night, I'd come crawling back, committing any crime. Looking for you, that fleeting high, that temporary bliss, Doing anything to get you back, lost in your toxic kiss. Lying, thieving, robbing, stealing, and manipulating, just to feel your hold, A story of addiction, a heart turned bitter cold. (Verse 2) Didn't care who I hurt, didn't care who I lied to, Just needed that rush, that feeling to see me through. Stole from my own family, looked them right in the eye, The guilt would eat at me later, but the craving wouldn't die. Lost jobs, lost friends, watched everything just fade, All that mattered was the next hit, the choices I had made. Living like a ghost, hollowed out and cold inside, Just the burning need for you. (Verse 3) Didn't shower for days, greasy hair matted and stuck, Every nerve on edge, feeling constantly struck By waves of anxiety, a darkness closing in tight, Just trying to score, living in perpetual night. Couldn't eat proper meals, just chasing that empty hit, My body screaming for rest, but I just wouldn't quit. The paranoia was real, thinking cops were at the door, Just wanting that numb escape, and always wanting more. (Chorus) Hit after hit, I'd swear that was it, I'd quit for good this time. But night after night, I'd come crawling back, committing any crime. Looking for you, that fleeting high, that temporary bliss, Doing anything to get you back, lost in your toxic kiss. Lying, thieving, robbing, stealing, and manipulating, just to feel your hold, A story of addiction, a heart turned bitter cold. (Verse 4) The shaking hands, the blurry eyes, the constant grind, A shadow of a person, leaving sanity behind. Each day a struggle, just to make it through the sun, Wishing for oblivion, when the day was finally done. Empty promises whispered, to myself, to everyone I knew, Trapped in the cycle, with nothing left to do. (Verse 5) The whispers in the dark, telling me I wasn't strong, Convincing me that this broken place was where I belonged. Sleeping on floors, losing all my pride and nothing felt safe, Just chasing that illusion, in a desperate, lonely race. The shame would build and fester, a toxic, heavy weight, Pushed away all those who loved me, sealing my own damn fate. (Verse 6) Felt like a demon's puppet, dancing to its wicked tune, Lost all sense of time, morning, night, or afternoon. The world outside was vibrant, but I was living in a haze, Just looking for that next fix, through all the desperate days. My spirit felt eroded, my soul was wearing thin, Just one more hit, I'd tell myself, and then I'd start again.. (Bridge) There were moments, just flashes, of the person I used to be, Staring back at me, lost and begging to be free. The shame would wash over, a tidal wave of pain, Knowing what I'd become, living life in vain. Tears I couldn't stop, a guttural, silent scream, Trapped in this nightmare, this horrifying, broken dream. The desperation so real, it clawed inside my chest, Aching for a way out, a moment's peaceful rest. (Verse 7) The scars still ache and bleed, this ain't some easy fix you see, There are days the cravings hit so hard, they damn near swallow me. The guilt for what I've done, it claws beneath my skin and bone, But I don't walk this path in darkness, I've never been truly alone. (Outro) For the love of my family., the strength of my dear friends., And the unwavering truth of God., on them my spirit depends....
