I remember little things You'd leave for me to find A little card, a little gift With words you left behind I found those books we never read About a mom and her girl Little pieces of you inside A world I couldn't understand And I used to think I had to choose Between the good and all the hurt But I was wrong Both were yours I see you now Not only as my mom But as the woman you were The one I couldn't reach back then I see the pain behind your eyes The things you never told me And I wish I could go back in time To tell you: I loved you then I love you now I just didn't know how to see you I look at all those photographs And sometimes I still get angry But there were moments we were happy There were moments you were trying I can see the difference now I can see where things changed And I hate that life got so heavy You never got the chance To become who you could have been I spent so long trying to understand How you could struggle and still love me Now I think I finally know You were hurting too I see you now Not only as my mom But as the woman you were The one I couldn't reach back then I see the pain behind your eyes The things you never told me And I wish I could go back in time To tell you: I loved you then I love you now I just didn't know how to see you That last day I put my hand upon your shoulder You felt cold And said my name Like you just needed to know That I was there Maybe you had something left to say Maybe there were words we never found I wish I knew what they were I wish I could hear them now Because when I close my eyes I don't only see what happened anymore I see you And behind your eyes I see the pain you carried I see you now And I wish you'd had more time To heal the parts of you That never learned how to be alright I can't change what happened And I won't pretend it didn't hurt But I don't want to lose the good By only remembering the worst You were my mom You were a woman You were broken You were trying You loved me And somehow Both can be true I wish I had seen you then The way I see you now Not only as my mom But as the woman you were I loved you I love you still And finally, Mom... I see you now.
