together for a minute it seems like many more instances I am the object of his desire in the next I am nothing but a whore , tramp, slut, bitch and more useless, worthless a cunt in fact all the wondrous things he calls me and never takes them back... but take him back, I always do, even though the things he shouts aren't even close to true. One day its that Im a bitch another its got to do with meds Im sick I am twisted Im fucked in the head. then it seems as if his anger passed and good for a day or two, but seldom does it last he forgets the things he tells me until he wants a piece of ass promises broken incidentally much different than the picture he paints and always tries to sell me. I love this man, (I thought I did) the best way that I know how but my best will never be good enough I know this now No matter what path i choose he decides I always lose whether we get along or fight, decides who's wrong and what's right, when to stay and why to go, and asks me why he should stoop so low,? is that how you really feel? why are we together still? this is not what love is about you do whatever and I go without? im so tired of this, everything I do is wrong what happened to the time we used to get along? he refuses to be realistic or see his error in ways and justifies his cruelty and the mean things he says to him I am a possession, and one he readily discards detachment is his middle name loyalty he disregards. hes wrung me through the ringer hung me out to dry no longer making me smile he loves to see me cry. walk away he always does, needing no other reason than just because he used to make me love him and thought he loved me but now i see that things can never be accusations without supportive facts heartless, cruel and mean is the way he attacks... says he hates me knows that I am a cunt doesn't stand behind me puts on quite the front. I cant take it, i dont want to feel this way we had something special and you have thrown it all away your abuse, your mistreatment of me and pointing the finger at me defines the exact reasons why we can never be iI laid out truth to my face you effortlessly lie so this little whore no longer tries but you bet your ass you in for a big surprise its over now no more games no more inflicted wounds no more hurtin' no more trying to decipher what is certain its quite obvious, hes got what he wanted no more need to pretend and he says its over, but the bullshit doesn't end i hate what its doing to me i hate that he can't see i deserve better anyone could be someone who is real someone concerned with the way they make me feel someone who doesn't call me names who doesn't play these shitty games and will allow time to heal. when together it's in secret, the multitude is unaware, your actions always confirming that you don't really care why do you leave and always come back and acts as if its only temporary and afraid to unpack you shift the blame to me trying to get me to react. I'm not a storage facility or babysitter for your things, and if you think you are coming and going like that you need to take with you when you leave whatever it is you bring what part of that do you not get? once I would have done anything for you now I don't give a shit. you have made me uncomfortable in my own home took for granted every kindness I have shown turned my bed into a battlefield but checked out daily while i battled alone you taught me how I should treat you, by what you didn't do while i did everything for nothing because I was doing it for you so don't put your wallet on my nightstand cuz you never once put money in my hand just keep it in your pocket, cuz when I walk out my bedroom door, Im shutting the door and locking it he will delete his profile rather than say in a relationship for a while but listing single as your status always makes you smile but when i remain single you going to flip how's that kool-aid taste? hares a straw take a sip go have your fun, stay single and mingle but before heading my way you might wanna jingl,e what does that mean? nothing I'm Just sayin' come on babe quit playing your abuse, your mistreatment of me and pointing the finger at me defines the exact reasons why we can never be i laid out truth to my face you effortlessly lie so this little whore no longer tries but you bet your ass you in for a big surprise
