I love you so much it hurts to look at you. I want to pull you close and just break down. Instead, I sit here and hold my breath. I stare at my hands and say nothing. The heart wants what the body can never have. It wants to let you in. It wants to be soft for once. But I just freeze. I shut down right when you need me. It wants to give you everything, and all I give you is silence. You look at me like you're waiting for a sign. Just any proof that I’m really here with you. I can feel the crying trapped in my throat, but I can't make a single sound. It’s not that I don’t care. I care so much it completely wrecks me. It’s watching you fall apart right in front of me, and knowing I’m the reason you feel so alone. I’m right here. I’m so sorry. I’m right here, and I just can't move.
