[Verse 1] I hate admitting this But I kept the door ajar For some perfect day That never got that far I watched the clock Like it owed me a life And every empty dawn Cut me like a knife [Pre-Chorus] Waiting for the green light Waiting on the sign Waiting for somebody To hand me back my time [Chorus] I’ve been alive this whole time (whole time) I’ve been alive this whole time (whole time) Not after, not someday Right here in the break I’ve been alive this whole time And I just woke up late [Verse 2] I waited for money To make me feel brave Waited on a rescue That never came I wore my fear Like it was truth Kept saying soon Instead of saying you [Pre-Chorus] Waiting for the green light Waiting on the sign Waiting for somebody To hand me back my time [Chorus] I’ve been alive this whole time (whole time) I’ve been alive this whole time (whole time) Not after, not someday Right here in the break I’ve been alive this whole time And I just woke up late [Verse 3] I waited for them To finally believe As if their hands Could do the breathing for me I made their doubt My rented home And every room Still felt alone [Pre-Chorus] Waiting for the green light Waiting on the sign Waiting for somebody To hand me back my time [Chorus] I’ve been alive this whole time (whole time) I’ve been alive this whole time (whole time) Not after, not someday Right here in the break I’ve been alive this whole time And I just woke up late [Verse 4] Then one day I caught my face In a bathroom mirror In a crowded place No lightning struck No heaven tore Just me, looking tired At my own front door [Pre-Chorus] And it hit so hard It hit so clean I had been standing Inside my own dream [Chorus] I’ve been alive this whole time (whole time) I’ve been alive this whole time (whole time) Not after, not someday Right here in the break I’ve been alive this whole time And I just woke up late [Verse 5] I kept saying later Like later was kind Like later would spare me From losing my mind But later is a thief With my name in its hand Taking all the first times I’d never understand [Pre-Chorus] Waiting for the green light Waiting on the sign Waiting for somebody To hand me back my time [Chorus] I’ve been alive this whole time (whole time) I’ve been alive this whole time (whole time) Not after, not someday Right here in the break I’ve been alive this whole time And I just woke up late [Verse 6] Now I’m touching the day Like it’s made of glass Counting every step Instead of watching it pass I don’t need a promise To start the song I don’t need forever To know I belong [Pre-Chorus] No more waiting No more lines No more begging For my own life [Chorus] I’ve been alive this whole time (whole time) I’ve been alive this whole time (whole time) Not after, not someday Right here in the break I’ve been alive this whole time And I just woke up late [Verse 7] So if you’re standing Where I used to stand With your heart half-packed And your future in your hand Listen to me When I say it’s true The life you wanted Is already moving through you [Bridge] Don’t wait for permission Don’t wait for proof Don’t wait for the moment To come and choose you Open the window Let the ache run free You were never empty You were always being [Final Chorus] I’ve been alive this whole time (whole time) I’ve been alive this whole time (whole time) Not after, not someday Right here in the break I’ve been alive this whole time And I’m awake today I’ve been alive this whole time (whole time) I’ve been alive this whole time (whole time)
