Disrupting My Citizen Soldier Time (Female Vocal Mix)

Intro I was minding my own business listening to my lifeline citizen soldier then you texted me. Verse 1 You text me saying that you need your space Then turn around and throw it in my face "I'm sorry for my actions," that’s what you write But by the evening, we are back to the fight I ask you if you want your distance or not But you’re too caught up in the drama you got Checking your voicemail from the numbers you blocked While the doors to our friendship are being locked. Verse 2 You say that Via said some hurtful things And now you’re crying from the sting it brings She’s telling all her friends about the mess And you are drowning in your own distress You didn't want her telling people the truth So you bring all the chaos back to my youth Your voice is shaking on the speech-to-text Leaving me wondering what you’ll blame me for next. Pre-Chorus You cry for forgiveness, then you twist up the knife You drag me right down to the edge of your strife You break every promise, then you do it again And this is the reason I can’t be your friend. Chorus You keep on saying that you understand But you just hold the match that burns our land I’m done with trying to explain my hurt While you just drag my feelings through the dirt I don’t want space to fix this down the line I want a clean break from your life and mine This isn't working, I am pulling through I don’t want to be friends with you. Verse 3 I offer help, I say "I'm here for you" Like a best friend is supposed to do But you snap back and tell me to drop the case Saying I’ll make it ten times worse in this place "You'll get me in trouble, just drop it please" Forcing me down to my absolute knees You push me away, say I can't understand Then turn around and demand my hand. Verse 4 Your mom blocked her number so she can't even text And I'm stuck here trying to see what is next You admit you're going through your own heavy things But look at the damage that your cycle brings You beg for forgiveness when your world goes black But the second you're fine, you start the attack You blame me for her leaving, you blame me for the split And I am officially so done with it. Pre-Chorus You cry for forgiveness, then you twist up the knife You drag me right down to the edge of your strife You break every promise, then you do it again And this is the reason I can’t be your friend. Chorus You keep on saying that you understand But you just hold the match that burns our land I’m done with trying to explain my hurt While you just drag my feelings through the dirt I don’t want space to fix this down the line I want a clean break from your life and mine This isn't working, I am pulling through I don’t want to be friends with you. Verse 5 Every single time she walks out the door You drop your heavy burdens right on my floor You say I don't support you, say I don't care But I'm the only one who was actually there I’m tired of being the villain in your mind While I’m the only person being half-kind You use me for comfort then twist up the knife I am erasing your drama out of my life. Verse 6 This is the final curtain, the end of the track I’m blocking your number, I am not looking back No more "I guess I forgive you" or hiding the truth No more wasting the rest of my youth Go fix your relationship, go cry on your own Do not expect me to pick up my phone The friendship is broken, the boundary is set This is a goodbye you won't ever forget. Bridge Every time she leaves, I pay the price I’m done taking your toxic, rewritten advice You trash our friendship to save your own skin But I’m locking the door, you're not coming back in You said I would make it ten times worse Well, being your best friend was the real curse So carry your own weight, and carry your own shame Because you can no longer mention my name. Pre-Chorus You cry for forgiveness, then you twist up the knife You drag me right down to the edge of your strife You break every promise, then you do it again And this is the reason I can’t be your friend. Chorus You keep on saying that you understand But you just hold the match that burns our land I’m done with trying to explain my hurt While you just drag my feelings through the dirt I don’t want space to fix this down the line I want a clean break from your life and mine This isn't working, I am pulling through I don’t want to be friends with you. Outro Go cry to someone who still wants to stay I’m turning off my phone and walking away No back-and-forth, no guessing what it means I’m letting go of all your messy scenes Blame me one last time as I walk out the door We aren't best friends, not anymore.