[Verse 1] I say I'm waiting on You But I'm scrolling my days away I say I don't hear Your voice But I never quiet down to stay I call these four walls a desert While my Bible gathers dust I say I'm hungry for heaven But I feed on everything but trust [Chorus] Is He truly first Or just first when I feel afraid Is He truly Lord Or a name on the list of things I crave If I never make the room How can I say He's all I thirst I keep asking where You are While You ask Am I really first [Verse 2] I bring You my restless wishlist Like a child at a crowded store But I don't bring my questions To sit with You and listen more I say "God My life’s not changing" While my habits stay the same I leave You in the corner Then I wonder why I feel this way [Chorus] Is He truly first Or just first when the edges burn Is He truly Lord Or a shortcut for what I want to earn If I never lay it down How can I say I’ve counted the cost I keep saying You feel distant While my heart keeps holding the cross off [Bridge] What if the change I'm asking for Starts with the chair I never take The early morning Open page The quiet drive Your holy name What if the voice I’m longing for Has waited in my crowded room Patient in my every day Whispering “Child Make Me your truth” (oh-oh) [Chorus] Is He truly first Or just first when I feel the pain Is He truly Lord Or a spare key hanging on my chain If I gave You every hour Every hidden worry Every hurt Would I finally find You nearer When at last You are truly first
