[Intro] +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ Sometimes things Dont go the way you want +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ (A Survival Pro Production) [Verse 1- male rap vocals- Persuasive Pro] Aye look I am lookin for answers These questions plaguin me like cancers Spreadin, Awaitin my execution, no beheading I am dreadin The day I hit trendin I've seen too many youngin's die Shit I am still sculpted by The words That bleeds out on this track Dylan was shot in the back Girl I sat behind in class died of colen cancer at eighteen Then a boy that didnt have any friends didnt make it passed his teens Right before he was twenty crashed his car into a tree Yet I flip my car three times and walk out without a scratch like I am just me A loser Substance abuser Mocked God in my younger years Still strugglin drownin in all my beers Feel like nothin more than a jester Sometimes I wonder if God wants all this shit to fester An I aint hatin God but my heart is oh so tender I hear that you know better You say I cant serve two masters An I get lost in the laughter God I dont mean to pester But I need a answer Just kick it with me no pressure But why we gotta suffer Why you gotta make things tougher When they already gettin rougher I aint heard a answer an I am gettin drunker I am gettin older I wish I was still younger I no longer feel the hunger [Chorus beautiful female voice singing -Persuasive Pro] Theirs a hole in my chest I never get any rest I try my best (I try my best) It's all over in a flicker I always kept your picture Theirs a hole in my chest I never get any rest I try my best (I try my best) It's all over in a flicker I always kept your picture If you’re listenin, don’t turn away now I’m on my knees but I don’t know how To tell you I am still here... (I am still here.) To tell you I am still here... ( I am still here.) [Verse 2 male rap -iSurvived] Aye, look, when I was younger my whole damn world fell apart, My mom died, left a hole in my chest that still tears me apart. Didn’t know how to grieve, so I turned to gettin’ high, Mixed the drugs with the liquor, just pretendin’ I was fine. High school turned to funerals, way too many gone too soon, One pulled the trigger on himself, left us all inside the gloom. Three more died in a wreck, I watched the life leave their eyes, Another couldn’t take the pain and chose a rope for his goodbye. So I kept chasin’ every bottle, thinkin’ numb would make me heal, Till my liver started failin’ and that shit got way too real. I was starin’ death dead in the face, convinced my time was through, Then You reached into my darkness, God… somehow You pulled me through. Now I’m still searchin’ for the reason that You kept me here alive, While so many people leave before they ever reach their prime. I ain’t pissed at You, Lord—I’m just broken, askin’ why. Why do so many have to leave while I’m still here just gettin’ by? I’m tryin’ my damn best to trust the path You have in mind, Even when the answers feel impossible to find. If You saved me for a purpose, help me see it through these tears, ‘Cause I’m still carryin’ every one I’ve lost throughout the years. [Chorus beautiful female voice singing -Persuasive Pro] Theirs a hole in my chest I never get any rest I try my best (I try my best) It's all over in a flicker I always kept your picture Theirs a hole in my chest I never get any rest I try my best (I try my best) It's all over in a flicker I always kept your picture If you're listenin, don't turn away now I'm on my knees but I don't know how To tell you lam still here... (I am still here.) [Outro - Male Spoken - iSurvived] I still don't know why I survived... Maybe I never will. But if one person hears these words... And decides to keep livin' one more day... Then maybe... That's why I'm still here.
