The Law of My Own Heart

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Verse 1
My mama used to call me her little catalyst
Said I’d walk in a room and the whole world would shift
I never meant to set fires, I just breathed and sparks would fly
Felt every single feeling like they were mine

I carried other people like a pocket full of stones
Every ache, every worry, every broken bone
I was rescuing a bug while I was bleeding inside
Calling that compassion, calling that a life

Pre-Chorus
I didn’t know what I wanted
Didn’t know who I was
So I ran and I ran
Yeah, I ran and I ran
And I called it “enough”

Chorus
It came down to a choice: hurt them or hurt me
And I always chose to bleed
Now I’m learning the law of my own damn heart:
It’s not my job. It’s not my job.

My job is me. My job is my life.
My job is to stay and not sacrifice.
I can care from a distance, I can wish you well,
But it’s not my job to save you from yourself.

Verse 2
We were taught to be smaller, taught to disappear
Our magnificent trampled by fear
And somehow we forgot what we came here to be
We called it being good, we called it humility

I attracted the needy, I called it love
I called it devotion, I called it enough
But I was empty and tired and quietly lost
Paying everybody else’s invisible costs

Pre-Chorus
Now I’m remembering
And remembering’s okay
And learning’s okay
Yeah, changing’s okay

Chorus
It came down to a choice: hurt them or hurt me
And I always chose to bleed
Now I’m learning the law of my own damn heart:
It’s not my job. It’s not my job.

My job is me. My job is my life.
My job is to stand in my own daylight.
You can walk with me, or you can walk away,
But I’m not disappearing so you can stay.

Bridge
It’s hard when it’s your lover
It’s hard when it’s your kids
But this is my one wild life
And I want to live it

I surrender to the mystery
I release the old lie
I whisper to my mirror a million times:
“It’s not my job. It’s not my job.”

Verse 3
And he’s not leaving, no, he’s still here
He’s got a good heart, he’s trying, my dear
We’re starting again, we’re building what’s true
And when I look at the world, I don’t have it so bad — do you?

Final Chorus
It came down to a choice: hurt them or hurt me
This time I choose to be free
I’m not here to be smaller, quieter, or numb
I’m here to become who I’ve always been

My job is me. My job is my life.
My job is to stay in my own light.
I can love you and still say no,
I can stay and still let go.

Outro
My mama was right — I catalyze.
But I don’t burn myself to keep others alive.
It’s not my job.
It’s not my job.
It’s my life.

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The Law of My Own Heart Verse 1 My mama used to call me her little catalyst Said I’d walk in a room and the whole world would shift I never meant to set fires, I just breathed and sparks would fly Felt every single feeling like they were mine I carried other people like a pocket full of stones Every ache, every worry, every broken bone I was rescuing a bug while I was bleeding inside Calling that compassion, calling that a life Pre-Chorus I didn’t know what I wanted Didn’t know who I was So I ran and I ran Yeah, I ran and I ran And I called it “enough” Chorus It came down to a choice: hurt them or hurt me And I always chose to bleed Now I’m learning the law of my own damn heart: It’s not my job. It’s not my job. My job is me. My job is my life. My job is to stay and not sacrifice. I can care from a distance, I can wish you well, But it’s not my job to save you from yourself. Verse 2 We were taught to be smaller, taught to disappear Our magnificent trampled by fear And somehow we forgot what we came here to be We called it being good, we called it humility I attracted the needy, I called it love I called it devotion, I called it enough But I was empty and tired and quietly lost Paying everybody else’s invisible costs Pre-Chorus Now I’m remembering And remembering’s okay And learning’s okay Yeah, changing’s okay Chorus It came down to a choice: hurt them or hurt me And I always chose to bleed Now I’m learning the law of my own damn heart: It’s not my job. It’s not my job. My job is me. My job is my life. My job is to stand in my own daylight. You can walk with me, or you can walk away, But I’m not disappearing so you can stay. Bridge It’s hard when it’s your lover It’s hard when it’s your kids But this is my one wild life And I want to live it I surrender to the mystery I release the old lie I whisper to my mirror a million times: “It’s not my job. It’s not my job.” Verse 3 And he’s not leaving, no, he’s still here He’s got a good heart, he’s trying, my dear We’re starting again, we’re building what’s true And when I look at the world, I don’t have it so bad — do you? Final Chorus It came down to a choice: hurt them or hurt me This time I choose to be free I’m not here to be smaller, quieter, or numb I’m here to become who I’ve always been My job is me. My job is my life. My job is to stay in my own light. I can love you and still say no, I can stay and still let go. Outro My mama was right — I catalyze. But I don’t burn myself to keep others alive. It’s not my job. It’s not my job. It’s my life.

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