[Verse 1] I make a list beside the sink Of all the things I said I'd do The pen runs dry; the kettle clicks And every promise points to you [Pre-Chorus] One face says, give what they need One says, there's nothing left to give I keep them both behind my teeth And try to choose the way I live [Chorus] I want a life that fits my hands Not one I have to hide away But every name I love is written In the plans I can't erase If I pull toward the open door I still carry all of you I am not choosing less love I'm trying to make room for truth [Verse 2] Your jacket hangs beside the stairs A small shoe waits beneath the chair I hear you laughing down the hall And hate that I could want elsewhere [Pre-Chorus] The kinder voice says stay awhile The hungry one says don't go numb I won't call either one a lie They both know where I'm coming from [Chorus] I want a life that fits my hands Not one I have to hide away But every name I love is written In the plans I can't erase If I pull toward the open door I still carry all of you I am not choosing less love I'm trying to make room for truth [Bridge] Let the good one speak Let the selfish one be heard Neither gets the whole of me Neither gets the final word I can love you and want change I can grieve and still begin Hold the door, don't call it leaving There's a life I need to live [Final Chorus] I want a life that fits my hands And room for everyone I love No clean escape, no perfect answer Just the next small honest step If I pull toward the open door I still carry all of you I am not choosing less love I'm trying to make room for truth [Outro] The list stays on the counter The kettle settles down Tomorrow I'll make one true choice And let it be enough for now
