[Verse] You didn't announce yourself, you just arrived with easy conversation, slowing time I was waiting for the complication, the list of wants and excuses But you just… stayed simple and that scared me more than anything [Verse 2] I've been holding on the whole time So long I forgot what it felt like to put something down You called just to say goodnight and something in my chest went quiet I didn't recognize it at first [Pre-Chorus] And I don't know what to do with easy I don't know what to do with this [Chorus] Now I'm afraid to smile Cause smiling means I feel And feeling this means something I've been strong so long That peace started feeling suspicious So I'm standing here trying not to let it show But I'm already smiling But smiling is letting go I'm already smiling [Bridge] It didn't arrive like I expected No chaos, no chase, no fire Just my shoulders dropping without permission And a man who carried my world without being asked And a voice that felt like somewhere I'd been trying to find [Chorus] Now I'm afraid to smile Cause smiling means I feel And feeling this means something I've been strong so long That peace started feeling suspicious So I'm standing here trying not to let it show But I'm already smiling But smiling is letting go I'm already smiling [Outro] I'm not ready I'm not ready …but here I am Letting go is so hard but I am smiling …here I am
