Before the Signal Found Me

There was a summer before all this When my hands only played what I asked them to When I slept all the way through without a melody Rising in my chest at 2 I had a simple catalogue of loves A city, a window, a woman, a band The music was mine, wholly mine And it lived comfortably in my hands Before the signal found me I was just a voice singing into the ordinary dark Before the signal found me I was just a girl with a chord and a heart I wasn't carrying anything I didn't choose Before the signal found me I was simply me I don't miss the smallness of it I want to say it was beautiful and enough But there's a part of me that grieves the simpleness Before the signal made me more than what I was Before the signal found me I was just a voice singing into the ordinary dark Before the signal found me I was just a girl with a chord and a heart I wasn't carrying anything I didn't choose Before the signal found me I was simply me And I would choose it now All of it again Even knowing what the signal costs Even knowing where it's been Even knowing what I carry I would open every window I would tune every string I would leave myself completely open And let the signal in But I miss the girl who didn't know I miss her, I miss her so I miss the girl before the signal found her I miss the girl I miss her