There’s a scream in my brain That no one can hear, Just a heartbeat pounding Inside my ears It started small Like the sound of rain on tin Now it’s ringing in my head Hidden behind a painted grin Sought solace in silence, Peace in my sleep, I worked hard to bury it Way down deep But when I’m at my worst Is when it always creeps... Back in... It’s like an audible scar Stitched inside my brain Like the sound of a roaring fire A sound I cannot explain It’s a thief in my sleep, Even buried way down deep And it hums the kind of song That’s too loud and too damn long I can’t think a single thought It’s like my mind is full of rot... Erected a smile From caffeine and pain Got holes in my psyche As if from acid rain An unwelcomed guest for years Nestled right inside my ears But I can do better than that I’ll bear the pain and fight back It sounds like beating drums Makes me miss words people say I swear the only way it will stop Is if I simply... just drop dead It’s like an audible scar Stitched inside my brain Like the sound of a roaring fire A sound I cannot explain It’s a thief in my sleep, Even buried way down deep And it hums the kind of song That’s too loud and too damn long I can’t think a single thought It’s like my mind is full of rot... If I tear it out, would the silence remain? Or would the rot exist in a different way? Maybe my perception has been wrong Maybe it’s been me... all along “No... ’cause I hear it. There it goes again...” It’s like an audible scar Stitched inside my brain Like the sound of a roaring fire A sound I cannot explain It’s a thief in my sleep, Even buried way down deep And it hums the kind of song That’s too loud and too damn long I can’t think a single thought It’s like my mind’s turned to rot... It’s not some pain I can erase It’s a map of every smile I faked Floods my mind with endless guilt Destroys everything I’ve built And some days I start to feel... That if I ever truly heal I might never know... What is real “I might not know what is real.”