Breathe in the bitter cold winter cost Sitting on the curb with an inner nerve twitching in the shattered glass alley pass Cutting through the dark like a blade on a black coat back while the trash fire burns down slow Dying ash in an oil drum white steam turning into white breath hanging in the street flow Unearthing dirty words I said when the body went numb Slush in the gutter and rust in the drum Fire dying down till the fingers go numb Wind blowing trash down the block with a long time back dirt whispering loud Pavement shifting night shifts mind grips tight fits waiting for the ego and the front to crack Broke reflection Out of the dark Smoke connection Mirror image stepping in my space Hollow eyed clone Beat up coat Standing in the fog Staring in my face Smelled like sour gin cold sweat frostbite frozen on his tongue when he spoke with a voice like he swallowed broken glass laughing in my face like my whole life's a joke Asking what the fuck am I hiding from telling me to hold my tongue open up wide take a bite while he drops that tiny square of paper on my lip grinning like a bastard under one streetlight Chemical burn hitting back of the throat acid in the bloodstream running down the nervous system now the red brick buildings got eyes staring down screaming out my real name loud Panic in the gut eyes locked mind cut running through the inner maze shadow ain't a stranger in the alley it's the guilt from my younger days Gotta sit with the hit split second flip ain't no running off now every piece of the shame that I buried coming up the drain pipe forcing me to bow Hold your breath kid hear the shadow spit low Godspeed player watch the whole street glow Don't you look away when the walls bend black Keep your real name lit ain't no turning back Hold your breath kid hear it ringing in the square Godspeed player ain't nobody in your head but you there Pavement breathing heavy now the whole mind twisting in a knot while I drink down the poison in the alleyway rotting on the asphalt cold spot Every bad choice that I kept tucked back in the dark attic of the brain stem crawling out the sewer grate grabbing my collar asking if I still remember them Watching how the terror starts climbing up the spine while the mind keeps slipping off the track layers of the bullshit peeling off fast till the vertebrae click and the back teeth crack Confronting the internal contamination navigating street corner acceleration calculating every single forgotten memory desperate for integration Bitter in the pit got a split in the lip grit in the teeth gotta sit in the trip Slipping in the dark getting hit by the whip dripping off the chin with a grip on the hip Time sliding fast through the cracks in my knuckles full hands of broken clocks lost in the fog Mouth full of fake laughs with decayed teeth drowning in the slush like a sick stray dog Cold room. Black coat. Hard throat. Dead note. Wet road. Shift load. Quick code. Mind broke. Lampposts bending down low whispering the worst shit I ever did when I was broke asking where the money went asking why I ran asking why I acted like a coward-ass joke Sidewalk sloshing like a boot in the mud blood in the gutter while the mind spins out trapped in the dark with my hands tied tight to the ankles of my ego and my doubt Wondering if that shadow wilding up ahead is a monster or the best part of me I left for dead whistling down the black tunnel where the night won't end calling out my real name like a long lost friend Truth hitting hard in the artery panic trying to hijack the control room running through the alleyways grabbing at the shadow that I tried to bury deep inside the tomb Sliding in the slush raw knuckles on the brick but I ain't gonna lose my grip staring at the dark in the eyes going straight down deep to the gut of the trip Pulse in my neck like a sledgehammer pounding adrenaline kicking straight in the throat swallowing the guilt and spitting out the shame while I drag my shadow by the coat Past unspooling like a cloud of black exhaust smoke looking at the mirror in the eye refusing to choke Hold your breath kid hear the shadow spit low Godspeed player watch the whole street glow Don't you look away when the walls bend black Keep your real name lit ain't no turning back Hold your breath kid hear it ringing in the square Godspeed player ain't nobody in your head but you there Air getting thin now white frost on the tongue Owning every single stupid thing I did when I was young No more running from the dark in the gutter ground holding steady while the sky drops stairs Good luck in there kid nobody's coming to answer your prayers step up and face yourself
