She Was Never The Fire

[Verse 1] She kneels and calls it worship I call it a hand I can't hold Every time she reaches, I turn to something colder Wearing armor I built on my own She says she loves me — I say love's a leash I say devotion's a war I won't lose She keeps coming back like a tide against the ceiling I keep pulling under what I choose [Chorus] Nowhere left to hide from her hunger Nowhere left to hide from my name I built a god out of never surrendering She built a home in the flame So burn me down, burn me open Show me the thing I refused to see She was never the fire — I was I was the one always starving to be free [Verse 2] Years of her chasing a shadow wearing my face Years of me swearing I don't feel a thing But she was never chasing the mask that I gave her She was chasing what breathes underneath So who's the fool now, silent and starving Calling it strength when it's only fear She stayed through the hunger, she stayed through the hollow I called it weakness — I couldn't see clear [Chorus] Nowhere left to hide from her hunger Nowhere left to hide from my name I built a god out of never surrendering She built a home in the flame So burn me down, burn me open Show me the thing I refused to see She was never the fire — I was I was the one always starving to be free [Bridge] Say it again — that you'd stay in the dark for me Say it again — like it isn't a scar on me I was the storm and you never once ran from it Now I don't know how to stand without you in it All this time I thought I was the only kingdom All this time you were holding up the sky [Verse 3] Now I see it — it was never about winning her It was a man too terrified to lose This is what I was too proud to remember Her staying was never about me, it was her truth This is pride — not the winning, not the conquest It's her standing there through everything I've done Still choosing me, still refusing to leave me I was blind — she was the only war I'd won [Final Chorus] Nowhere left to hide from her hunger Nowhere left to hide from my name I finally kneel where she's always been standing I finally know why she stayed So burn me down, I'm already open Show me the thing I refused to see She was never the fire — I was And she loved me through every version of me [Outro] She was never the fire — I was