HELLO DARKNESS MY OLD FRIEND

Verse 1 Hello shadow, you’re knocking again — yeah, you came back I shut every window, every door, but I cracked I wanted to be stronger, thought I’d built a wall Now I’m staring at the wreckage, watching pieces fall My hands are bleeding, yeah, I slipped into old habits The pills are there, but so is the doubt — so I avoid it Sometimes I think I’m losing my mind, twisting in this spiral Promise I made to myself — “never again” — but that was denial Verse 2 I told the world I was done running, like I meant it Now I’m replaying the same nightmare, I regret it Decisions feel foreign, like I’m living someone else’s life A puppet tangled in strings, every move cuts like a knife Truth and lie blur together — I don’t even know what’s real Praying for answers, but I’m not sure God even feels Grandma’s gone, and I wonder what she’d say to this mess Lost my home, lost my voice, I lost so much more than success Pre‑Chorus You came in like a thief, quiet but deadly Took what I thought was mine, left me unsteady I fight, but I break — I’m not who I was And fear smiles back, saying “this is because” Chorus I’m burning down my mansion, while I hold the gas can Asking God, “Did You start this fire?” or am I just the arsonist? Was peace just a fake deal so I’d know what real was? Is this what You wanted? Is this Your test or my curse? Fear’s not just a visitor — it’s the landlord now And I don’t know if I ever get to evict him somehow Bridge On the edge, hanging by a thread My heart’s empty, echoing what’s unsaid I’m spiraling — this isn’t new, but it feels like the end Still, I whisper, “help me,” but I’m not sure it helps Outro Fear didn’t knock this time — he moved in, permanent And I don’t know if I’ll ever be rid of him But I’m here. Still standing. Still breathing.