Capital gains and capital gains again (x4) Cause I just cannot understand the why the who the way the where now, soon as Im a empire user I feel I should be dethroned now? Cant I just see the bigger picture cant I just see the plan that has been set out for me like a legacy portrayed in originality, cant I just feel the maims the fame the fans the fam again? Why is it honestly so hard to choose the right side its like a narrow road that gets narrower im hollow and im choosing it.. I want to change my path and I will change it but the one im on now is good and evil Im giving lust a top of the throne and never letting it go, justification eats me alive so tell me would you still try? even after 10 years of this happening (yes 10) I was damn 6 when I got exposed to it, now Im trying to figure out a way to quit am I strong and resilient enough to do it? When BPD comes into the picture everything gets flipped upside down and this time there isnt a fucking river, I got a bow and quiver Im ready to shoot and miss the apple on my head for I feel like a failure in this way all over again. Why has 3 albums almost been about the same things? Same way of sorting things out with no way out now im trying to be devout can you guess my route? Alright I just want to label the fucking idea in my head as incredible it kills me when I cannot execute it though, So shoot maybe I should do something about it, even if its a small step its still a step like Mac being Lethal said, "cause if you taking slow steps its better then no steps and if you taking slow steps you still making progress..." so this is to detestify or neglect a guy that has side tracked me why, I dont even get this naai Im just trying to light, up my world even if its bad at first im doing something he tried and failed cause it wasnt even in him to begin with.
