Inside My Head

Nobody sees inside my head Nobody knows what's happening there I try to put it into words But nothing sounds the way it feels I get up, I make it through the day I do the things I'm meant to do From the outside, I look alright There's so much no one ever sees They say I'm worth so much I wish I could feel that too They tell me life is beautiful I wonder how they know Why can't they see what I see? Why can't they feel what I feel? They talk about a life worth living Like that could make the pain less real They say there's still so much ahead That I have reasons to hold on I hear the words, I know they mean well But they don't know how it feels inside They call it strength when I keep going They say I've made it through so much They see the fact that I'm still standing They don't see how hard it is I try to explain the thoughts I carry The heaviness I can't put down But every answer sounds so simple When you're not the one who's drowning I know there are things worth living for I know the words, I've heard them all But knowing what I'm meant to feel Doesn't change what's happening inside Why can't they see what I see? Why can't they feel what I feel? They talk about a life worth living Like that could make the pain less real They say there's still so much ahead That I have reasons to hold on I hear the words, I know they mean well But they don't know how it feels inside I don't know how to make it clear How tired a heart can be When every day takes everything And no one feels it but me They tell me things will get better As if I haven't tried to believe I wish they understood the difference Between being here and wanting to be Why can't they see… I'm better off gone… Let me go… Just let me go… Why can't they see what I see? Why can't they feel what I feel? I'm tired of searching for the words To make an invisible hurt feel real They see a future waiting for me I can barely see beyond today I'm trying to explain what's happening But the words keep slipping away LET ME GO! Just let me gooo! I'm screaming somewhere in my own head With nowhere left for these thoughts to go Nobody sees inside my head Nobody knows how deep it goes I wish I could explain this feeling So someone finally understands