Is This Me in Love? (Verse 1) I don’t like the way my mornings changed, Coffee tastes like yesterday. Every song sounds like your name, Every smile just fades away. My friends tell me, “You’ll be alright,” But I can’t even sleep at night. I never asked for butterflies, They only learned how to bite. (Pre-Chorus) I used to laugh without a reason, Now every season feels too cold. If this is what they call a blessing… Why does it feel like letting go? (Chorus) Is this me in love? Or am I just falling apart? Everyone says love heals the soul, Why’s it tearing up my heart? Is this what they dream about? ‘Cause I don’t understand. If love is supposed to lift you up… Why can I barely stand? Is this me in love? I don’t think I want the truth. If loving you means losing me, Then what am I supposed to do? If this is what forever feels like… I’d rather be alone. ‘Cause love has turned my safest place Into a house that’s never home. (Verse 2) I check my phone a thousand times, Knowing nothing’s there. The silence somehow screams your name, It’s louder than despair. I hate the way my chest gets tight Whenever someone mentions you. I’d give away these aching thoughts If only I knew how to. They tell me love is beautiful, Like sunsets by the sea. Nobody ever warned me What it’d do to me. (Pre-Chorus) Now every memory’s a mirror, Showing someone I don’t know. I traded pieces of myself For feelings I can’t control. (Chorus) Is this me in love? Or am I just breaking down? Why does your voice still echo here When you’re nowhere around? If love is patient, love is kind… Then why’s it so unfair? How can someone leave the room But somehow still be there? Is this me in love? I wish my heart could just resign. I miss the person I once was Before you crossed my mind. If loving someone hurts this much… Then maybe I’ll let go. I’d rather miss what could’ve been Than lose what’s left to show. (Bridge) I miss sleeping through the night. I miss laughing without trying. I miss hearing love songs Without feeling like crying. I miss being enough for myself. I miss silence in my head. I miss not rehearsing conversations That were never even said. Maybe love isn’t the villain… Maybe timing is. Maybe hearts don’t always know What happiness really is. But if this pain is part of loving, Then I don’t know if I’m strong. I’d rather wear an empty heart Than carry one this gone. (Final Chorus) Is this me in love? Then why do I feel so small? I built a world around your smile, Now I’m watching it all fall. Is this me in love? Or is this grief in disguise? ’Cause every promise love once made Just disappeared with time. Maybe someday I’ll believe Love can be something kind. But tonight it’s just a storm That won’t leave my mind. So if this is me in love… You can have it back somehow. I’d rather learn to breathe alone Than forget who I am now. (Outro) Maybe one day I’ll thank these scars. Maybe one day they’ll fade. But tonight I close my eyes and ask… “Is this me in love?” I don’t want it anymore
