[Verse 1 — low, controlled, deliberate, like a match being held steady] People see the smile and think they see the story Think the easy laugh means everything is fine Think because I carry it without complaining That there's nothing underneath this life of mine But I was built from women who survived the unsurvivable Who bent but never broke beneath the weight Who swallowed fire for breakfast every morning And still showed up and still kept themselves straight And all of that is in me Every single bit of it Compressed down to the marrow To the core And I need you to understand something Before you think you know me Before you think you've seen what I'm made for [Pre-Chorus — guitar sharpens, the pressure building] I am gasoline And grace In the same body At the same time Strike the wrong match near me And you'll find out Which one Shows up first [Chorus — horns enter, full band, the combustion arriving] I am made of this Every scar and every hallelujah Every night I almost lost it Every morning that I chose it I am made of this Firecracker born In a family of fire Raised on the edge of Something that could go at any hour I am made of this And I could go combustible Right now Don't think I couldn't Don't think this stillness Is anything more than A countdown Dressed in a smile I am made of this I am made of this [Verse 2 — even more intimate, the identity stripping back layer by layer] I've been called strong so many times I started wondering if strong was all I was If somewhere underneath the steel and the showing up There was still a girl who needed things because I was her once Before the world Required something harder from me Before I learned that soft things get broken down And fire gets respected So I became the fire And I kept the soft thing Somewhere deep and somewhere small Somewhere only I can find it Somewhere nobody gets to touch at all But it's there Lord it's there And it's mine And it's real And it's the most flammable thing about me More than the rage More than the resilience It's the tenderness I'm protecting That could burn this whole thing down [Pre-Chorus — rawer, the pressure at its highest] I am gasoline And grace Don't mistake the quiet For the absence of the flame I've been holding this together Long enough That the holding itself Became the danger [Chorus] I am made of this Every scar and every hallelujah Every night I almost lost it Every morning that I chose it I am made of this Firecracker born In a family of fire Raised on the edge of Something that could go at any hour I am made of this And I could go combustible Right now Don't think I couldn't Don't think this stillness Is anything more than A countdown Dressed in a smile I am made of this I am made of this [Bridge — everything drops, just organ and voice, the most dangerous quiet] You want to know what I'm made of I'm made of my grandmother's hands That never stopped moving Even when they had every reason to I'm made of every no That got swallowed And every yes That cost something I'm made of the 3am When I sat on the bathroom floor And decided Not today Not today Not today I'm made of every small fire I started in myself To keep warm When nobody else Was bringing heat (single guitar note) (long silence) (the organ returns low) (something ignites) And I am One degree From the temperature Where all of this Just [Final Chorus — biggest version, full combustion, the band fully alive] I am made of this Every scar and every hallelujah Every night I almost lost it Every morning that I chose it I am made of this Firecracker born In a family of fire Raised on the edge of Something that could go at any hour I am made of this And I could go combustible (she almost does) Right now (she holds it) Don't think I couldn't (she holds it) Don't think this stillness Is anything but (full stop) (one breath) A woman Who knows exactly What she's made of And chooses Every single day Not to burn the world down With it I am made of this I am made of this I am (the band drops) (just her) (just the organ) Made Of This [Outro — guitar smolders down to silence, one last organ chord held long]
