I want to tell you how I am feeling But inside is just a mess of emotion With no literal translation I envy your articulation How can it be so natural? How can it be real That you can tell me how you feel So easily? How can it be so easy? You say “I’m scared” like it’s the weather I search for words and come up empty-handed Every feeling fights with another But watching you makes me want to land it So here’s my try, raw and unpolished I feel you even when I’m silent And that terrifies and pulls me in For a while I thought that the feels had gone Because I functioned like a person who had moved on But inside the knot was just getting tighter Tighter and tighter I spent so long untying that knot alone Thought silence was the safest way home But hiding never made it lighter So maybe this future will be a little brighter I’m not chasing perfect I’m not chasing forever Just want something better Something better than before Teach me how to say it How to let it unfold Make this heart a little braver Than the one you never got to know I don’t need fireworks or storybook lines Just someone who stays when the feeling gets heavy Who doesn’t run from the mess in my mind And lets me be clumsy while I’m learning to be steady All I’m asking is make it better Better than hiding, better than numb Let’s build something honest together Even if we fumble, at least we’ve begun I'm not looking for the perfect romance I'm not looking for the perfect guy I'm looking for something better Just make it better than the last time I'm looking to improve on the last time Each one better than before Make it better than before
