[Metalcore/Blackglaze] To break me

You always sound sweetest right before the damage You touch me like a bruise you’re proud of Slow fingers wrapped around my throat Then apologize with shaking hands Like sorrow cancels what you did I memorized your warning signs The shift in your voice before the storm How every room became unstable The second disappointment crossed your face You break me down so carefully I almost mistake it for devotion I hate the way I still reach for you Even after all the fucking damage Like my body learned your violence And confused it with being loved You pull me under every time I run Then hold me close when I start drowning I’m trapped between survival and desire Too wounded to stay Too scared to leave You say nobody else would want me With these scars beneath my skin Then kiss the same places you destroyed Like setting flowers on a grave I stopped telling friends what happens Started covering truth with long sleeves You turned fear into routine Until silence felt safer than escape I don’t know if I miss you Or just the version of myself before you existed YOU KEEP ME STARVING THEN CALL IT LOVE KEEP ME BLEEDING THEN CALL IT HEALING I FEEL YOUR TEETH INSIDE MY HEAD A FUCKING PARASITE WEARING YOUR FACE I’m trying hard not to romanticize the suffering Trying not to mistake fear for connection But every time I finally pull away You drag your hooks back through my chest And part of me still wants to save you Even while you poison everything I am Maybe abuse becomes addictive When loneliness feels worse than pain One day I’ll leave without returning One day your voice won’t live inside me But tonight I’m still lying here Beside the thing that’s killing me