[Intro - explicitly clean, no humming before verse 1. music only] [VERSE 1] I've spent so long trying to fix this life I don't remember what it felt like to just live it. Every door leads to another door. Every answer needs another answer. Every time I think I'm getting somewhere something else falls apart. And everybody says keep going. [PRE-CHORUS] But what if I've got nothing left to give? What if hope is just another thing I'm too tired to hold? [CHORUS] I can't keep hoping when I've lost all hope. Can't keep running when there's nothing left in my bones. I'm exhausted from trying to find a way out of this mess Maybe there isn't a way out. Maybe this is just life. And maybe I'm finally done pretending I'm okay with that. [VERSE 2] I watch you keep moving forward. Plans in your head. Fire in your eyes. You want a life that feels alive. And I want that too. God, I want that with you. [PAUSE] But lately all I can do is sleep.... Sleep because I'm tired. Sleep because I'm overwhelmed. Because being awake feels like another thing I have to survive. [PRE-CHORUS] And I hate that you get the version of me that's barely here. I hate that loving you doesn't magically make my energy re-appear [CHORUS] I can't keep hoping when I've lost all hope. Can't keep running when there's nothing left in my bones. I'm exhausted from trying to find a way out of this mess Maybe there isn't a way out. Maybe this is just life. And maybe I'm finally done pretending I'm okay with that. [BRIDGE — QUIET] Maybe you need someone who can run with you. Someone who wakes up wanting more. Someone who has some fucking energy at all Someone who can say: Come on. Let's go... [PAUSE] And I don't know how to be that person right now. Maybe I don't have to be. [LONG PAUSE] Maybe I just need to stop trying to run someone else's race. [BUILD] Maybe I need to find my way back to myself. Not fix everything. Not figure it all out. Just breathe. Just be here now. Just take the next step [FINAL CHORUS] Because I love you. That's the hardest part. I love you and I still don't know how to shift these blues I want the life you want... I just don't have the energy to get there the way I thought I would. [PAUSE] And I don't know what happens next. I don't know if I'm getting better. I don't know if I'm getting worse. I just know I'm tired of pretending it doesn't hurt [OUTRO] So tonight... don't ask me to be hopeful. Don't ask me to have a plan. Just stay & hold my hand [PAUSE] Let me be tired. Let me be in the mess Let tomorrow be tomorrow & just know I'm doing my best [MUSIC FADES]
