[Verse 1] I know the shape of your expectation I know the cost of accommodation Cut myself down to a manageable size Then wondered why I couldn't breathe inside I learned your language I learned your rules I learned that being wanted Came with conditions too But here's the flaw In your perfect design You built a cage And called it mine [Pre-Chorus] If I'm too loud Turn it up If I'm too much That's enough If I don't fit Your little frame Maybe the frame Was wrong [Chorus] What I ammmmmmm What I ammmm No one gives a damn No one notices What I ammmmmmm What I ammmm Feeling happier Feel happier Now you're here What I ammmmmmm What I ammmm Maybe all this time I was looking in the wrong place What I ammmmmmm What I ammmm I don't need to disappear Now you're here [Verse 2] I have a PhD in second-guessing A master's degree in self-protection Made a career out of reading the room While quietly making myself disappear from view Funny thing about survival It teaches you the difference Between being loved And being useful Between being chosen And being convenient Between “don't change” And “don't change for me” [Pre-Chorus] If I'm too loud Turn it up If I'm too much That's enough If my edges Make you uncomfortable Good They're supposed to [Chorus] What I ammmmmmm What I ammmm No one gives a damn No one notices What I ammmmmmm What I ammmm Feeling happier Feel happier Now you're here What I ammmmmmm What I ammmm All the things I buried Coming back to life What I ammmmmmm What I ammmm I don't need to disappear Now you're here [Breakdown] You called it difficult I called it honest You called it broken I called it unfinished You called it too much I finally called it mine And maybe that's the difference Between surviving and alive [Bridge] Maybe I am contradiction Maybe that's the point A little grace With a little violence Holding the same voice I can be soft Without surrender I can be scarred Without shame I can love you Without handing you The keys to my name [Final Chorus] What I ammmmmmm What I ammmm No one gives a damn No one notices What I ammmmmmm What I ammmm Feeling happier Feel happier Now you're here What I ammmmmmm What I ammmm I spent my whole life Trying to be enough What I ammmmmmm What I ammmm Now I finally feel alive Because you're here What I ammmmmmm What I ammmm Now you're here.
