[Intro] Another year, another calendar dies The lights are on but I’m barely alive [Verse 1] Everyone’s posting smiles in red and green Matching sweaters, perfect memories My phone keeps buzzing like I should be there But I’ve been home all night, ripping out my hair I say “I’m fine” because it’s easy to do But dammit, December, I can barely get through [Pre-Chorus] I don’t wanna kill the mood I don’t wanna overshare So I smile for the picture And disappear upstairs [Chorus] Merry Christmas, happy holidays I know you’re okay, I know you’re safe Melt the fake tree just to warm my heart Crap on a cracker, these holidays are hard Merry Christmas, happy holidays I mean it, I swear it, maybe today I'll paint little snowflakes where I have scars Or worse - goddamn, these holidays are hard [Post-Chorus / Refrain] Happy holidays Happy holidays Repeat, repeat, don't let down my guard [Verse 2] I miss the people I don’t talk to now I miss believing the world wouldn't burn Every year I say “this one’s new” But arson is the only way I learn There’s Jingle Bells playing over the PA There’s one less braincell to rot away [Pre-Chorus] I don’t wanna ruin the vibe I don’t wanna be that guy So laugh a little louder While I fucking hide [Chorus] Merry Christmas, happy holidays I know you’re okay, I know you’re safe Noel's five drinks in at this shithole bar Godfuckingdammit, these holidays are hard Merry Christmas, happy holidays I mean it, I swear it, maybe today I'll papercut my fingers on a holiday card Or worse - goddamn, these holidays are hard [Bridge] Joy is mandatory "Merry happy" on every breath If this season's gonna bore me Better bore me straight to death I’m not ungrateful I’m just tired Of pretending I'm not hurt [Final Chorus] Merry Christmas, happy holidays If you’re listening, I hope you’re okay I don’t need fixing, please don't start I like how I'm broken. Holidays are hard Merry Christmas, happy holidays Say it with me, don’t look away Ignite the yule log 'til it's charred Jesus fucking christ, these holidays are hard [Outro] Happy holidays Happy holidays Some of us are just surviving And some not
