I fell in love with a voice in the dark A signal through the static, a spark I waited on a knock that never came Called it destiny, called it fate I told myself, “He’ll find his way” Held that dream twelve damn years straight Loving a shadow, loving a name Praying a ghost would feel the same I wasn’t chasing you I was chasing safety I wasn’t crazy I was starving for maybe No blueprint for love Only pain I survived So I mistook absence For something divine Presence is love Consistency is truth I don’t chase ghosts I come home to me now Presence is love Showing up is proof If you can’t meet me here I release you.... I stayed hopeful while breaking inside Thought love meant waiting, meant swallowing pride Every almost, every “someday soon” Every silence that filled the room Anger came first, then grief hit hard Depression whispered, “You went too far” Still part of me thought you’d appear Like a movie ending, right on cue, right here But real love doesn’t hide Doesn’t vanish, doesn’t test Real love stands embodied Breathing, present, flesh and chest I had to die to finally live Let the fantasy go, take back what I give I healed the wound that wanted rescue Stopped outsourcing what I always knew I am enough ...... not someday, now I don’t beg, I don’t bow I learned what love is not So I recognize it when it’s found Presence is love Consistency is truth I don’t chase ghosts I come home to me now Presence is love Showing up is proof I survived myself I survived you I don’t chase ghosts I walk in light I don’t disappear To be loved right Presence is love Consistency is truth I release what cannot meet me I release what cannot meet me I am here I am whole I am enough
