_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_ I fold myself smaller in the doorway light Practice my smile so it donโt look like a fight I type a message, delete it again If I donโt ask for help, I donโt bother my friends I count my steps, I soften my voice Pretend every silence was always my choice If I disappear, they wonโt have to care If I stay quiet, I wonโt weigh down the air _.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_ Iโm fine, I swear I say it fast Before they ask Before I crack _.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_ I donโt want to be a burden So I carry it alone I donโt say whatโs hurting I just turn it into stone Thereโs so much I should be doing But I freeze instead If I need too much from you Iโd rather need nothing instead _.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_ I swallow my needs like a bad little habit Tell myself โdonโt be dramaticโ I wait till Iโm drowning to wave my hands Then blame the water for not understanding I show up late, leave early, fade out If I take up space, I start freaking out They say โjust askโ, like itโs that easy But asking feels selfish, heavy, and greedy _.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_ I nod, I laugh I play along I keep it light I keep it wrong _.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_ I donโt want to be a burden So I disappear instead I donโt chase the things Iโm wanting I just keep them in my head Thereโs so much I should be doing But Iโm scared Iโll let you down If my pain spills onto you Iโll just swallow every sound _.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_ If I break Would you hate me? If I ask Would you stay? If I say I canโt do this alone Would you think Iโm in the way? I donโt wanna be loud I donโt wanna be hard I donโt wanna be the reason Youโre tired or scarred _.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_ I donโt want to be a burden So I stay unfinished Dreams half-built, plans abandoned So no oneโs inconvenienced I know thereโs things I should be doing Living, reaching, being brave But if loving me costs something Iโd rather fade than make you pay _.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_ I donโt need much I donโt need help I donโt need you I tell myself (โฆeven when itโs not true) _.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_.~"(_
