I Can’t Change Anything

Ican’t change anything Bought fresh notebooks just to black out the first Every new promise died dressed up as a cure Said yes with my mouth while my blood said no Kept my face in the room while the real part drove I got real good at the start, bad at the stay Made a whole little religion out of someday Everybody loved the draft, nobody saw through it I kept handing out versions like that was the truest Every fresh start had the same hand in it Mine I can’t change anything That’s what I told myself New page, same torn corner Same vow on the same shelf I can’t change anything Maybe I just named it wrong Maybe hands know things That waiting never learns to do Then one night I got tired of circlin’ the nerve Put both hands on the thing and let it come out wrong first No one in the corner, no gold star, no key Just the mess going solid in front of me Something gave way that I’d been holding as true Like a lock givin’ way in a house with no door Not clean, not bright, not holy, not grand Just the first thing that ever took shape in my hands Every fresh start had the same hand in it Mine I can’t change anything That’s what I told myself New page, same torn corner Same vow on the same shelf I can’t change anything Maybe I just named it wrong Maybe hands know things That waiting never learns to do Maybe I just named it wrong