<]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[>(￣﹃￣)<]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[> Shh— Lights off Eyes shut Brain says: no. <]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[>(￣﹃￣)<]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[> I’m dead tired, body melting in the bed But my head’s doing laps, doing laps instead Heartbeat clicking like a broken metronome Every thought screams louder when I’m alone Pillow’s warm, clock’s too bright three seventeen feels like a personal fight I replay words I never said right Zooming in on mistakes every night <]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[>(￣﹃￣)<]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[> Why’d I say that Why’d I do this What if tomorrow I totally lose it Eyes closed Mind cracked I’m exhausted But I’m wide awake, yeah <]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[>(￣﹃￣)<]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[> I’m tired but my brain won’t sleep Thoughts on repeat, repeat, repeat Count sheep, they laugh at me Wide awake, don’t look at me Tired eyes, tired mind Sleep is somewhere I can’t find Shut it down, let me be I’m so tired—can’t sleep <]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[>(￣﹃￣)<]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[> Phone face down but I feel it buzz Imaginary vibrations, what the hell was that? Future spirals, past regrets Did I lock the door? Did I send that text? Breathing slow, but my thoughts go fast Like glitter bombs in a glass head mask I try meditating, counting air My brain goes “L-O-L”—not fair <]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[>(￣﹃￣)<]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[> If I stop thinking Who am I then? Silence feels louder Than the noise in my head <]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[>(￣﹃￣)<]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[> I’m tired but my brain won’t sleep Thoughts on repeat, repeat, repeat Count sheep, they laugh at me Wide awake, don’t look at me Heart beating in my chest Every “what if” hits its best Shut it down, let me be I’m so tired—can’t sleep <]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[>(￣﹃￣)<]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[> Maybe tomorrow I’ll laugh at this Maybe this night won’t always exist But right now the dark feels loud and close And my brain won’t let me go <]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[>(￣﹃￣)<]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[> Eyes closed Mind awake Every second Feels like days I’m tired… I’m tired… <]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[>(￣﹃￣)<]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[>-<]#[>
